It's been a while that I disappear from the blog.
It's been a while that I tried so hard to evade the responsibilities.
It's been a while that I never done my homework.
How long?
Years, months, days, hours, minutes or even seconds?
It took long enough for me to discover.
It's been a while.
Had you ever look carefully to your parents eye?
Had you ever pay attention to my parents?
Had you ever tell your parents how you love them?
No, it should be something as below:
Had I ever look carefully to my parents eye?
Had I ever pay attention to my parents?
Had I ever tell my parents how I love them?
I and I, and it will be always I.
I admit I didn't.
I should be aware.
Ages fade away, wisdom grows.
There were so much to tell.
I Love You, but How?
Love should never be a secret, right?
It shouldn't be a burden neither.
I love them, but How?
It's been a while, since I tell them how much I love them.
Monday, 23 April 2012
Monday, 16 January 2012
What More Should We Ask For?
As after finish reading one of my friend's blog, there was an intention which I would so eager to share what was fresh in my thoughts...
Her blog; with poetic style of arrangements, you are not reading an article, you are reading a story; a life of a student which was so exciting ans yet tiring from what I see through...
Amazed, and you should be gratitude of your surroundings...
It wasn't the words I was really amazed of it even though that was part of it; it wasn't really the picture that I saw; but the message...
What more should we ask for, when I'am having so many gifts around me with abundant of love...
Love from family and friends, especially when you were in vein...No hesitation from them to offer you help..
What more that I can do to repay their love?
There are times that you prefer to lost in the sea of confusion, there are times that you would wish to swim out of it...
Nearly the end of the semester (last week to be correct), a simple SMS I sent to a friend of mine; and the next day I met her; out of so many questions she can ask, it was this: Are you OK Teoh, are you stress?
WOW!!!!!!!
A suddenly asking me am I OK with just a simple SMS, and yet it was so touching...
To be honest I nearly cried...Another friend, they were studying together and both of them saw the SMS...
The same question again, which also made me a sudden; almost to cry on the spot...
Nothing beats more than a simple question; from a loving friend; which was always there to care and love...
It doesn't matter who you are, where are you from...
What more you want to ask for?
What more you want to greed from what you have around you?
I am lucky...I had wonderful blogs to read and to improve from it; I had a loving family and friends which was so far but yet so close, because of their sincerity...
What more Should I ask for?
Not more, than to love them more...
Love shouldn't become a responsibility, because you had to love...
Love, what more should we ask for, by saying it and doing it...
Love is not to seek nor to ask nor to earn, but to feel, but to fully utilize this natural gift among humans...
What More Should We Ask from the surroundings, but to simple just love and treasure them...
Her blog; with poetic style of arrangements, you are not reading an article, you are reading a story; a life of a student which was so exciting ans yet tiring from what I see through...
Amazed, and you should be gratitude of your surroundings...
It wasn't the words I was really amazed of it even though that was part of it; it wasn't really the picture that I saw; but the message...
What more should we ask for, when I'am having so many gifts around me with abundant of love...
Love from family and friends, especially when you were in vein...No hesitation from them to offer you help..
What more that I can do to repay their love?
There are times that you prefer to lost in the sea of confusion, there are times that you would wish to swim out of it...
Nearly the end of the semester (last week to be correct), a simple SMS I sent to a friend of mine; and the next day I met her; out of so many questions she can ask, it was this: Are you OK Teoh, are you stress?
WOW!!!!!!!
A suddenly asking me am I OK with just a simple SMS, and yet it was so touching...
To be honest I nearly cried...Another friend, they were studying together and both of them saw the SMS...
The same question again, which also made me a sudden; almost to cry on the spot...
Nothing beats more than a simple question; from a loving friend; which was always there to care and love...
It doesn't matter who you are, where are you from...
What more you want to ask for?
What more you want to greed from what you have around you?
I am lucky...I had wonderful blogs to read and to improve from it; I had a loving family and friends which was so far but yet so close, because of their sincerity...
What more Should I ask for?
Not more, than to love them more...
Love shouldn't become a responsibility, because you had to love...
Love, what more should we ask for, by saying it and doing it...
Love is not to seek nor to ask nor to earn, but to feel, but to fully utilize this natural gift among humans...
What More Should We Ask from the surroundings, but to simple just love and treasure them...
Friday, 13 January 2012
那些年，我认识了你们
我不知道是否大家在心中都有这样的感觉。
小学期待中学，中学期待大学。
我的期待；变成了我的梦想。
学院的生活，有时让我喘不过气。
学院的压力，有时让我更加迈向我所要达到的目标。
就在某一个年份，我认识了你们。
我找到了你们。
我融入了你们。
初来报道，需要时间适应。
所有的一举一动，都注意万分。
距离还是很远，一度怀疑自己的选择。
你们逐渐改变了我。
再一次把我从新估定我对我自己的价值看待。
因为你们，我重新估定了我自己。
因为你们，我看清了我自己。
因为你的出现，我看见了属于我自己另一个面具。
记忆犹新；我在念certificate的时候；为了赢；为了要掌握所有；我把我自己变成不是我要的自己；我不再是我。
以前那个时候；念书的时候不会想。
每个人在每个不同的阶段都会想和做不一样的事。这是一句在一部港剧里的台词。
20了。
会不会太迟，到了那些年才认识你们？
不会。
Certificate造就了我，Diploma改变了我。
2012年了，2009年5月；我认识了你们。
2012年了，2010年9月；我找到了你们。
这一年；我更加认识我自己；就因为那些年；我认识了你们。
小学期待中学，中学期待大学。
我的期待；变成了我的梦想。
学院的生活，有时让我喘不过气。
学院的压力，有时让我更加迈向我所要达到的目标。
就在某一个年份，我认识了你们。
我找到了你们。
我融入了你们。
初来报道，需要时间适应。
所有的一举一动，都注意万分。
距离还是很远，一度怀疑自己的选择。
你们逐渐改变了我。
再一次把我从新估定我对我自己的价值看待。
因为你们，我重新估定了我自己。
因为你们，我看清了我自己。
因为你的出现，我看见了属于我自己另一个面具。
记忆犹新；我在念certificate的时候；为了赢；为了要掌握所有；我把我自己变成不是我要的自己；我不再是我。
以前那个时候；念书的时候不会想。
每个人在每个不同的阶段都会想和做不一样的事。这是一句在一部港剧里的台词。
20了。
会不会太迟，到了那些年才认识你们？
不会。
Certificate造就了我，Diploma改变了我。
2012年了，2009年5月；我认识了你们。
2012年了，2010年9月；我找到了你们。
这一年；我更加认识我自己；就因为那些年；我认识了你们。
Monday, 2 January 2012
2012
It was way too normal when you say some use to it words such as "Welcome to 2012","Goodbye 2011"...Some stuffs like that...
I am in the examination timing right now...Study in a good mood seems to be the hardest mission for me currently, the engine was not hot enough to warm up my study mood right now...
Talking about my engines, I would like to replenish my engines with something different....(not talking about cars)
People say 2012 was going end...I try not to rebut that but also try not to care about it...
Going back to my engine of 2012, I was glad that challenges are there by allowing me to go through; event though there are moments that I would tend to avoid it, but, it was a process of being a human by making mistakes...But not repeating the same mistakes that you vow not to repeat it in this year...
Had a few lists in mind that I wish to complete in this year, but, who the hell CARES ???!!!!
Not saying I am not going to complete what I want to do, another way round of doing it sounds better...
I don't really hate exams, just that when I'm not in the motive; the performance and results would not be in how others see on me...
But, who CARES???!!!
Again not implying that I would never put efforts on changing my engine, change another way round sounds better....
2011 was been a year of not to say hectic but, manage to take care of it...
Being a normal student (am I ?), I tend to change a bit this year....Strictly to say it had already implied a bit this year...
There's a Chinese saying: 尽人事，听天命...Do your best, leave it to the fate...
That's practically how I'm going to change my engine...I will try my best for it to maintain, but, when it comes out wasn't what I dreamt for, it wouldn't had that much impact (marks as an example)
Sincerely I express my greatest appreciation to all of my friends, classmates and lecturers that helped me go through 2011, it was bit lame wishing it a bit late (today is 2/1/2012), but, wishes never meant to be late when it has the component of gratitude and love...
Technically, I had no big dreams in this year, no tons of unable achieve aims in my thoughts, I had just one simple wish for this year: BEING BACK TO NORMAL...
How and What do I mean of being back to NORMAL, as in being me or???
Who knows and who cares what will happen in the future?
All I understand is, do my best for it but not cry to the death after when I found it late...A credit for a blog post of a friend of mine which inspired me so much...Which was why I had such though of care about it but not all of it which was not worth for it...
Let us observe what will happen in the future of mine...It was just about to start...
Happy 2012...
I am in the examination timing right now...Study in a good mood seems to be the hardest mission for me currently, the engine was not hot enough to warm up my study mood right now...
Talking about my engines, I would like to replenish my engines with something different....(not talking about cars)
People say 2012 was going end...I try not to rebut that but also try not to care about it...
Going back to my engine of 2012, I was glad that challenges are there by allowing me to go through; event though there are moments that I would tend to avoid it, but, it was a process of being a human by making mistakes...But not repeating the same mistakes that you vow not to repeat it in this year...
Had a few lists in mind that I wish to complete in this year, but, who the hell CARES ???!!!!
Not saying I am not going to complete what I want to do, another way round of doing it sounds better...
I don't really hate exams, just that when I'm not in the motive; the performance and results would not be in how others see on me...
But, who CARES???!!!
Again not implying that I would never put efforts on changing my engine, change another way round sounds better....
2011 was been a year of not to say hectic but, manage to take care of it...
Being a normal student (am I ?), I tend to change a bit this year....Strictly to say it had already implied a bit this year...
There's a Chinese saying: 尽人事，听天命...Do your best, leave it to the fate...
That's practically how I'm going to change my engine...I will try my best for it to maintain, but, when it comes out wasn't what I dreamt for, it wouldn't had that much impact (marks as an example)
Sincerely I express my greatest appreciation to all of my friends, classmates and lecturers that helped me go through 2011, it was bit lame wishing it a bit late (today is 2/1/2012), but, wishes never meant to be late when it has the component of gratitude and love...
Technically, I had no big dreams in this year, no tons of unable achieve aims in my thoughts, I had just one simple wish for this year: BEING BACK TO NORMAL...
How and What do I mean of being back to NORMAL, as in being me or???
Who knows and who cares what will happen in the future?
All I understand is, do my best for it but not cry to the death after when I found it late...A credit for a blog post of a friend of mine which inspired me so much...Which was why I had such though of care about it but not all of it which was not worth for it...
Let us observe what will happen in the future of mine...It was just about to start...
Happy 2012...
Tuesday, 29 November 2011
20年
从小开始（20年前）
现在（20年后）
我发现。。我真的改变了。
回忆过去，痛苦的相思忘不了，为何你还在，拨动我心跳？（万芳：新不了情）
还记得年少时的梦吗？像朵永远不凋零的花；陪我经过那风吹雨打，看世事无常，看沧桑变化。（张艾嘉：爱的代价）
有意思的两首歌曲。
从来没想过用这个拿来做开头。
既然有了头，也不妨来个不一样的：
一追再追，只想追赶生命里；一分一秒；原来多莫可笑；你是真正目标。（张国荣：追）
到如今年复一年，我不能停止怀念，怀念你，怀念从前；但愿那海风再起，只为那浪花的手；恰似你的温柔。（蔡琴：恰似你的温柔）
没有你的日子里，我会更加珍惜自己；没有我的岁月里，你要保重你自己。（齐秦：大约在冬季）
有时候，有时候，我会相信一切有尽头；相聚离开，都有时候，没有什么会永垂不朽。（王菲：红豆）
昨晚看着照片，其实；眼光逐渐泛泪。可惜的是，往事只能回味。
如今也只能忆童年，时光难倒回。
照片的主人翁；有着很多的故事。
爸爸妈妈20年前，爷爷奶奶，外公外婆，叔叔们，舅舅们，阿姨和姑姑20年前的样子。
原来，他们都在我生命中，陪伴我走了20年的路。
曾经以为我的家，是一张张的票根；撕开后展开旅程；投入另外一个陌生。（姜育恒：驿动的心）
记忆中曾祖母慈祥的脸，如今也只能透过照片回首。
曾祖母安详离开，阿姨也离开了。
原来发现；阿姨也有着一对清秀亮丽的眼睛。
曾祖母那慈祥温暖的双手，曾经是安抚我还在婴儿时睡觉的巧手。
阿姨曾经拥抱过我还在婴儿时的双手，原来是如此洁白。
看着照片，不时幻想当时的我，和阿姨的笑容；真的很不一样。
20年了，千禧年过了。
我们也跟随时代的脚步，继续走着我们的生活，过着自己理想的人生。
亲情不变，不变亲情。
故事也许缺少了欢笑的开头，却还有一大半的故事还没开始；一切也都是个谜。
人有悲欢离合，月有阴晴圆缺，此事古难全，但愿人长久，千里共婵娟。（王菲 / 邓丽君：但愿人长久）
现在的我，如今年20。说不上阅历资深。我只想告诉大家；
种颗善因陪你走好每一天，简简单单陪你走好每一天。（刘德华：悟）
也许你或者我都不想简简单单，但是；
我们尽人事，听天命；活得自在，活得欢喜。
现在（20年后）
我发现。。我真的改变了。
回忆过去，痛苦的相思忘不了，为何你还在，拨动我心跳？（万芳：新不了情）
还记得年少时的梦吗？像朵永远不凋零的花；陪我经过那风吹雨打，看世事无常，看沧桑变化。（张艾嘉：爱的代价）
有意思的两首歌曲。
从来没想过用这个拿来做开头。
既然有了头，也不妨来个不一样的：
一追再追，只想追赶生命里；一分一秒；原来多莫可笑；你是真正目标。（张国荣：追）
到如今年复一年，我不能停止怀念，怀念你，怀念从前；但愿那海风再起，只为那浪花的手；恰似你的温柔。（蔡琴：恰似你的温柔）
没有你的日子里，我会更加珍惜自己；没有我的岁月里，你要保重你自己。（齐秦：大约在冬季）
有时候，有时候，我会相信一切有尽头；相聚离开，都有时候，没有什么会永垂不朽。（王菲：红豆）
昨晚看着照片，其实；眼光逐渐泛泪。可惜的是，往事只能回味。
如今也只能忆童年，时光难倒回。
照片的主人翁；有着很多的故事。
爸爸妈妈20年前，爷爷奶奶，外公外婆，叔叔们，舅舅们，阿姨和姑姑20年前的样子。
原来，他们都在我生命中，陪伴我走了20年的路。
曾经以为我的家，是一张张的票根；撕开后展开旅程；投入另外一个陌生。（姜育恒：驿动的心）
记忆中曾祖母慈祥的脸，如今也只能透过照片回首。
曾祖母安详离开，阿姨也离开了。
原来发现；阿姨也有着一对清秀亮丽的眼睛。
曾祖母那慈祥温暖的双手，曾经是安抚我还在婴儿时睡觉的巧手。
阿姨曾经拥抱过我还在婴儿时的双手，原来是如此洁白。
看着照片，不时幻想当时的我，和阿姨的笑容；真的很不一样。
20年了，千禧年过了。
我们也跟随时代的脚步，继续走着我们的生活，过着自己理想的人生。
亲情不变，不变亲情。
故事也许缺少了欢笑的开头，却还有一大半的故事还没开始；一切也都是个谜。
人有悲欢离合，月有阴晴圆缺，此事古难全，但愿人长久，千里共婵娟。（王菲 / 邓丽君：但愿人长久）
现在的我，如今年20。说不上阅历资深。我只想告诉大家；
种颗善因陪你走好每一天，简简单单陪你走好每一天。（刘德华：悟）
也许你或者我都不想简简单单，但是；
我们尽人事，听天命；活得自在，活得欢喜。
Monday, 14 November 2011
观星
曾几何时，我爱上了观星。
独自一人走在满是路灯照耀的康庄大道（通往宿舍的道路），不时仰头望天；都会留意是否有星星。
我不会分什么是星星，什么是卫星；只要它在天空上闪着，对我来说它就是星星。
刚刚看见有两颗闪得异常亮丽的星星；有点距离。
月亮也在一旁，也同样有点距离。
若即若离，忽隐忽现。
两颗星星是如此的近，也是如此的远。
观星，是对大自然美的一种观察。
观心，是对自我增长的不二法门。
我观星了；再观心。
我和自己的距离越来越远。
越来越搞不清楚自己在想什么。
2.34的夜晚照旧是如此宁静。
旅行是一种体验，摄影是一种观察，文字是一种沉淀。
有一本摄影特辑是这么写。
我不明白，却又不由得去思考他到底要说什么。
因为作者的文字，代表了属于他自己的个性和人生。
2.49的夜晚，照旧如此宁静。
改变的，是人的心态。
人去楼空。
当然不要忘记功课和义务。
我希望自己的人生像股票，有起有落。
观了今晚的星星，看了自己的内心。
不要再多说，也不要再多想。
今晚观星，给了自己一个机会观心。
不知道，未来的什么时候，才会再有这个观星观心的机会。
也就让我，好好记住今晚这份感觉。
独自一人走在满是路灯照耀的康庄大道（通往宿舍的道路），不时仰头望天；都会留意是否有星星。
我不会分什么是星星，什么是卫星；只要它在天空上闪着，对我来说它就是星星。
刚刚看见有两颗闪得异常亮丽的星星；有点距离。
月亮也在一旁，也同样有点距离。
若即若离，忽隐忽现。
两颗星星是如此的近，也是如此的远。
观星，是对大自然美的一种观察。
观心，是对自我增长的不二法门。
我观星了；再观心。
我和自己的距离越来越远。
越来越搞不清楚自己在想什么。
2.34的夜晚照旧是如此宁静。
旅行是一种体验，摄影是一种观察，文字是一种沉淀。
有一本摄影特辑是这么写。
我不明白，却又不由得去思考他到底要说什么。
因为作者的文字，代表了属于他自己的个性和人生。
2.49的夜晚，照旧如此宁静。
改变的，是人的心态。
人去楼空。
当然不要忘记功课和义务。
我希望自己的人生像股票，有起有落。
观了今晚的星星，看了自己的内心。
不要再多说，也不要再多想。
今晚观星，给了自己一个机会观心。
不知道，未来的什么时候，才会再有这个观星观心的机会。
也就让我，好好记住今晚这份感觉。
Sunday, 6 November 2011
List of Movies that I wanted to Watch
I believe and urge myself to look for these movies while I can...Because I was so addicted to it once, and I find it in each of all these, there are stories behind that the movie that would wanted to tell me...
There are a few in mind, spontaneously, I would just list down for what I wanna watch in such time...And I wish I could do it...Keep it fresh...
1. Balto
Story about a sled dog that saves a small town in Alaska..From that moment on, I fell in love with huskies...
2. Prince of Egypt
Picked from the Bible, story and life Moses..I was very afraid while I watch this cartoon when I was small kid, but, now, I wanted to watch it again..Not to say that I wanted that fear, I wanted the memory I had...
3. Lion King
By Disney, which was one of my favorite, I like the story inside..Never feel boredom while watching it...
4. Spirit : Stallion of the Cameron
A horse, with the narrator, about how a super fast speed horse been captured and been trained so hard..But with the guts in the horse itself, it embarks a humorous journey with a native, which was also spiritually inspirational...
Sadly to say that I though I had a lot that I wanna to watch, but, happily to say that as well, shocked to say that I had only 5 in my mind, and I was happy that this 5 movies, are all cartoons, with no hesitation, all these cartoon watching habits are from my dad..Not to imply that I am saying my dad was a heavy movie viewer (yes he is), but he was the one that inspired me to watch all these, and I was happy that my dad inspired me to do so...Even though it sounds naive or stupid, but, this is me, which a me that likes to watch cartoons, until now...
There are a few in mind, spontaneously, I would just list down for what I wanna watch in such time...And I wish I could do it...Keep it fresh...
1. Balto
Story about a sled dog that saves a small town in Alaska..From that moment on, I fell in love with huskies...
2. Prince of Egypt
Picked from the Bible, story and life Moses..I was very afraid while I watch this cartoon when I was small kid, but, now, I wanted to watch it again..Not to say that I wanted that fear, I wanted the memory I had...
3. Lion King
By Disney, which was one of my favorite, I like the story inside..Never feel boredom while watching it...
4. Spirit : Stallion of the Cameron
A horse, with the narrator, about how a super fast speed horse been captured and been trained so hard..But with the guts in the horse itself, it embarks a humorous journey with a native, which was also spiritually inspirational...
Sadly to say that I though I had a lot that I wanna to watch, but, happily to say that as well, shocked to say that I had only 5 in my mind, and I was happy that this 5 movies, are all cartoons, with no hesitation, all these cartoon watching habits are from my dad..Not to imply that I am saying my dad was a heavy movie viewer (yes he is), but he was the one that inspired me to watch all these, and I was happy that my dad inspired me to do so...Even though it sounds naive or stupid, but, this is me, which a me that likes to watch cartoons, until now...
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