从小开始（20年前）
现在（20年后）
我发现。。我真的改变了。
回忆过去，痛苦的相思忘不了，为何你还在，拨动我心跳？（万芳：新不了情）
还记得年少时的梦吗？像朵永远不凋零的花；陪我经过那风吹雨打，看世事无常，看沧桑变化。（张艾嘉：爱的代价）
有意思的两首歌曲。
从来没想过用这个拿来做开头。
既然有了头，也不妨来个不一样的：
一追再追，只想追赶生命里；一分一秒；原来多莫可笑；你是真正目标。（张国荣：追）
到如今年复一年，我不能停止怀念，怀念你，怀念从前；但愿那海风再起，只为那浪花的手；恰似你的温柔。（蔡琴：恰似你的温柔）
没有你的日子里，我会更加珍惜自己；没有我的岁月里，你要保重你自己。（齐秦：大约在冬季）
有时候，有时候，我会相信一切有尽头；相聚离开，都有时候，没有什么会永垂不朽。（王菲：红豆）
昨晚看着照片，其实；眼光逐渐泛泪。可惜的是，往事只能回味。
如今也只能忆童年，时光难倒回。
照片的主人翁；有着很多的故事。
爸爸妈妈20年前，爷爷奶奶，外公外婆，叔叔们，舅舅们，阿姨和姑姑20年前的样子。
原来，他们都在我生命中，陪伴我走了20年的路。
曾经以为我的家，是一张张的票根；撕开后展开旅程；投入另外一个陌生。（姜育恒：驿动的心）
记忆中曾祖母慈祥的脸，如今也只能透过照片回首。
曾祖母安详离开，阿姨也离开了。
原来发现；阿姨也有着一对清秀亮丽的眼睛。
曾祖母那慈祥温暖的双手，曾经是安抚我还在婴儿时睡觉的巧手。
阿姨曾经拥抱过我还在婴儿时的双手，原来是如此洁白。
看着照片，不时幻想当时的我，和阿姨的笑容；真的很不一样。
20年了，千禧年过了。
我们也跟随时代的脚步，继续走着我们的生活，过着自己理想的人生。
亲情不变，不变亲情。
故事也许缺少了欢笑的开头，却还有一大半的故事还没开始；一切也都是个谜。
人有悲欢离合，月有阴晴圆缺，此事古难全，但愿人长久，千里共婵娟。（王菲 / 邓丽君：但愿人长久）
现在的我，如今年20。说不上阅历资深。我只想告诉大家；
种颗善因陪你走好每一天，简简单单陪你走好每一天。（刘德华：悟）
也许你或者我都不想简简单单，但是；
我们尽人事，听天命；活得自在，活得欢喜。
Tuesday, 29 November 2011
Monday, 14 November 2011
观星
曾几何时，我爱上了观星。
独自一人走在满是路灯照耀的康庄大道（通往宿舍的道路），不时仰头望天；都会留意是否有星星。
我不会分什么是星星，什么是卫星；只要它在天空上闪着，对我来说它就是星星。
刚刚看见有两颗闪得异常亮丽的星星；有点距离。
月亮也在一旁，也同样有点距离。
若即若离，忽隐忽现。
两颗星星是如此的近，也是如此的远。
观星，是对大自然美的一种观察。
观心，是对自我增长的不二法门。
我观星了；再观心。
我和自己的距离越来越远。
越来越搞不清楚自己在想什么。
2.34的夜晚照旧是如此宁静。
旅行是一种体验，摄影是一种观察，文字是一种沉淀。
有一本摄影特辑是这么写。
我不明白，却又不由得去思考他到底要说什么。
因为作者的文字，代表了属于他自己的个性和人生。
2.49的夜晚，照旧如此宁静。
改变的，是人的心态。
人去楼空。
当然不要忘记功课和义务。
我希望自己的人生像股票，有起有落。
观了今晚的星星，看了自己的内心。
不要再多说，也不要再多想。
今晚观星，给了自己一个机会观心。
不知道，未来的什么时候，才会再有这个观星观心的机会。
也就让我，好好记住今晚这份感觉。
独自一人走在满是路灯照耀的康庄大道（通往宿舍的道路），不时仰头望天；都会留意是否有星星。
我不会分什么是星星，什么是卫星；只要它在天空上闪着，对我来说它就是星星。
刚刚看见有两颗闪得异常亮丽的星星；有点距离。
月亮也在一旁，也同样有点距离。
若即若离，忽隐忽现。
两颗星星是如此的近，也是如此的远。
观星，是对大自然美的一种观察。
观心，是对自我增长的不二法门。
我观星了；再观心。
我和自己的距离越来越远。
越来越搞不清楚自己在想什么。
2.34的夜晚照旧是如此宁静。
旅行是一种体验，摄影是一种观察，文字是一种沉淀。
有一本摄影特辑是这么写。
我不明白，却又不由得去思考他到底要说什么。
因为作者的文字，代表了属于他自己的个性和人生。
2.49的夜晚，照旧如此宁静。
改变的，是人的心态。
人去楼空。
当然不要忘记功课和义务。
我希望自己的人生像股票，有起有落。
观了今晚的星星，看了自己的内心。
不要再多说，也不要再多想。
今晚观星，给了自己一个机会观心。
不知道，未来的什么时候，才会再有这个观星观心的机会。
也就让我，好好记住今晚这份感觉。
Sunday, 6 November 2011
List of Movies that I wanted to Watch
I believe and urge myself to look for these movies while I can...Because I was so addicted to it once, and I find it in each of all these, there are stories behind that the movie that would wanted to tell me...
There are a few in mind, spontaneously, I would just list down for what I wanna watch in such time...And I wish I could do it...Keep it fresh...
1. Balto
Story about a sled dog that saves a small town in Alaska..From that moment on, I fell in love with huskies...
2. Prince of Egypt
Picked from the Bible, story and life Moses..I was very afraid while I watch this cartoon when I was small kid, but, now, I wanted to watch it again..Not to say that I wanted that fear, I wanted the memory I had...
3. Lion King
By Disney, which was one of my favorite, I like the story inside..Never feel boredom while watching it...
4. Spirit : Stallion of the Cameron
A horse, with the narrator, about how a super fast speed horse been captured and been trained so hard..But with the guts in the horse itself, it embarks a humorous journey with a native, which was also spiritually inspirational...
Sadly to say that I though I had a lot that I wanna to watch, but, happily to say that as well, shocked to say that I had only 5 in my mind, and I was happy that this 5 movies, are all cartoons, with no hesitation, all these cartoon watching habits are from my dad..Not to imply that I am saying my dad was a heavy movie viewer (yes he is), but he was the one that inspired me to watch all these, and I was happy that my dad inspired me to do so...Even though it sounds naive or stupid, but, this is me, which a me that likes to watch cartoons, until now...
There are a few in mind, spontaneously, I would just list down for what I wanna watch in such time...And I wish I could do it...Keep it fresh...
1. Balto
Story about a sled dog that saves a small town in Alaska..From that moment on, I fell in love with huskies...
2. Prince of Egypt
Picked from the Bible, story and life Moses..I was very afraid while I watch this cartoon when I was small kid, but, now, I wanted to watch it again..Not to say that I wanted that fear, I wanted the memory I had...
3. Lion King
By Disney, which was one of my favorite, I like the story inside..Never feel boredom while watching it...
4. Spirit : Stallion of the Cameron
A horse, with the narrator, about how a super fast speed horse been captured and been trained so hard..But with the guts in the horse itself, it embarks a humorous journey with a native, which was also spiritually inspirational...
Sadly to say that I though I had a lot that I wanna to watch, but, happily to say that as well, shocked to say that I had only 5 in my mind, and I was happy that this 5 movies, are all cartoons, with no hesitation, all these cartoon watching habits are from my dad..Not to imply that I am saying my dad was a heavy movie viewer (yes he is), but he was the one that inspired me to watch all these, and I was happy that my dad inspired me to do so...Even though it sounds naive or stupid, but, this is me, which a me that likes to watch cartoons, until now...
Saturday, 15 October 2011
Skies
Never really thought would see this view in my life, which I waited, just to get something unusual...
Walking around the hostel taking pictures, seeing this in front of my eyes....
And it was so beautiful...
And it ended up in my camera....Salutations to the nature for this wonderful view...
Walking around the hostel taking pictures, seeing this in front of my eyes....
And it was so beautiful...
And it ended up in my camera....Salutations to the nature for this wonderful view...
Tuesday, 11 October 2011
执行长，谢谢您
当我开启电脑的那一刻（今晚），我心里其实还是不知道要想您说什么。
回顾到晚餐的那一天，在中心的那一刻，我真的一刹那不知道要说什么。
华人毕竟是华人，来来去去的客套话，除了那些还是那些。
可是今晚，我想对执行长您说的，相信文笔也形容不到多少。
两年前认识你（2009-2010），的确改变了我对年轻人，对大专生的看法。
您的宗教情操，我真的心里佩服。
没有想过，原来在佛光山还有这样的领导人。
每一次开会见面，真的非常匆忙，非常赶时间。
真的没有机会好好做下来聊一聊。
每次见面的方式，虽然严肃，不过略带轻松，也减轻了我内心不少压力。
每次和执行长见面说话，除了客套话，还是客套话。
虽然说大家都是自己人，可是，合资家人说话的感觉，竟是如此严肃拘禁；加上是执行长；都不知道要如何称呼。开完会，大家都走了。想问的问题，也就算了。
不过，身教重于言教。有一次和执行长，连同总部秘书一起参加一次法会。执行长有特别介绍唱法，感觉到执行长原来也有搞笑坦诚的一面，真的觉得，领导人要具备的条件就是这些。
回首看看自己一路成为领导人，常常会拿别人来作比较，为什么别人可以，我不可以？
为什么别人能够，我却没有办法？
相信执行长也有这样的问题。
不过，看见执行长都能够用佛法来处理问题的根源，看待问题的根本，的确，也是身为佛教团体领导人应该要有的一个条件：对佛法的坚持与信任。
今天，执行长您在日本念书，我也没有什么礼物送给执行长您，就以短短的以下的文字，来形容语萱看到的执行长。
愿方耀祥执行长称愿再来：
回顾到晚餐的那一天，在中心的那一刻，我真的一刹那不知道要说什么。
华人毕竟是华人，来来去去的客套话，除了那些还是那些。
可是今晚，我想对执行长您说的，相信文笔也形容不到多少。
两年前认识你（2009-2010），的确改变了我对年轻人，对大专生的看法。
您的宗教情操，我真的心里佩服。
没有想过，原来在佛光山还有这样的领导人。
每一次开会见面，真的非常匆忙，非常赶时间。
真的没有机会好好做下来聊一聊。
每次见面的方式，虽然严肃，不过略带轻松，也减轻了我内心不少压力。
每次和执行长见面说话，除了客套话，还是客套话。
虽然说大家都是自己人，可是，合资家人说话的感觉，竟是如此严肃拘禁；加上是执行长；都不知道要如何称呼。开完会，大家都走了。想问的问题，也就算了。
不过，身教重于言教。有一次和执行长，连同总部秘书一起参加一次法会。执行长有特别介绍唱法，感觉到执行长原来也有搞笑坦诚的一面，真的觉得，领导人要具备的条件就是这些。
回首看看自己一路成为领导人，常常会拿别人来作比较，为什么别人可以，我不可以？
为什么别人能够，我却没有办法？
相信执行长也有这样的问题。
不过，看见执行长都能够用佛法来处理问题的根源，看待问题的根本，的确，也是身为佛教团体领导人应该要有的一个条件：对佛法的坚持与信任。
今天，执行长您在日本念书，我也没有什么礼物送给执行长您，就以短短的以下的文字，来形容语萱看到的执行长。
愿方耀祥执行长称愿再来：
方圆之中有此人
耀己有缘能识佛
祥和自在就是他
执掌多物虽重任
行走多年无退缩
长生智慧应困难
称他为佛不算过
愿他处处遇好缘
再向人间探真理
来时已为人中佛
感恩执行长对语萱以来的信任。
这里祝福执行长，学成归来，然后称愿再来。
Friday, 7 October 2011
神雕侠侣, Legend of the Condor Hero
In the World of martial arts, there are loads of scenes we can imagine, and put yourself into the story, together with the leading characters. Either it is guy or girl, we will definitely enjoy the whole story.
Here, I'm going to introduce to you all one the most classic Chinese must read martial art novel : The Legend Of the Condor Hero (if I recall the name correctly), in Chinese would be神雕侠侣...
It comes in a lot of version, renewed, and also comics. Loads of different versions of movies and dramas for this novel also been produced, like as usual, which they did most of the time...
This whole thingy was talking about the guy (Yang Guo) and the girl (Xiao Long Nv), which they emerged and improvised their love from master-disciple love to become young love, and then true love.
Yang Guo was a poor kid at the first, he never knew how his parents died, due to the secrets kept by Guo Jing and Huang Rong (The famous husband and wife in the story), and they didn't really teach Yang anything on martial art. Growing up in an environment without love and care from what he sees, the whole world seems so cruel to him.
Finally, Guo Jing sent Yang to Mountain of Zhong Nan, which there Yang again experienced another cruelty by the mates there...He was in bad luck, but in good luck at the same time. He founded a way in to a tomb, which he met his first and only love in his whole life - Xiao Long Nv...This beautiful girl was actually older than Yang 2 to 3 years, but due to long term of practicing martial arts without any disturbance (desire), the look was so elegant and yet cold in the inside. She was trained not to leave the tomb for the whole life, and was also trained well with her skills. This meeting changed both of their lives forever.
As time, Yang was been kicked out from Mountain of Zhong Nan, and Yang started his own life with Xiao Long Nv inside the tomb.
They still need to come out, Yang would never bear ti stay inside, he is still young. But, Xiao Long Nv without any experience outside the world, she was been raped accidentally by one of the disciples of Quan Zhen, and everything change again and again...
In between Yang and Xiao Long Nv, it was just plainly master-disciple thingy, which after both of them left, they became lovers. Difficulties happen, and because Xiao Long Nv was Yang's master in martial art. Logically and culturally, they weren't suppose to be together, so called complicated relationship in the all the eyes of people during that time.
Yang achieve the martial arts level into that no one can really crack him down except for few, but, he was also a man that kept his promise, and also like to help (Robin Hood) like type of master.
Yang and Xiao Long Nv was meant to divide 16 years, and things gone in all ways. Yang became more and more stronger, and Xiao Long Nv, without any news from anyone, he was still waiting for the 16 years time to come.
The love between this 2 people might sound a bit mind blowing, and to the extend of never been accepted in a way round, but, it was true love that made them finally met each other beyond the cliff, and is what love drags them so far and so close to each other.
Love in them was so strong, which only will be in novels rather than the reality outside the world. We might always questioning ourselves why we never get to love anyone that we wanted to love like Yang Guo and Xiao Long Nv, since they can do it, why can't we?
Love was not a easy way to go along with, and it's not a thing to gamble.
Love of Yang to Xiao Long Nv, was true firm. Love, friendship, bromance and patriotic love to your country was actually what the novel was about, but, without love as a spice inside, story would be different.
Yang and Xiao Long Nv, The Legend of the Condor Hero, which they never ask, never question, and this was what they were all the time. Love the country, Love each other more than themselves. You might want to call this a sacrificial love, unworthy love. But, it is love that also made the story to live.
Martial arts is not just about fighting, its also about humble and learn how be a good person in life.
Legends and legacy can be created, so like the condor hero did, with love.
Here, I'm going to introduce to you all one the most classic Chinese must read martial art novel : The Legend Of the Condor Hero (if I recall the name correctly), in Chinese would be神雕侠侣...
It comes in a lot of version, renewed, and also comics. Loads of different versions of movies and dramas for this novel also been produced, like as usual, which they did most of the time...
This whole thingy was talking about the guy (Yang Guo) and the girl (Xiao Long Nv), which they emerged and improvised their love from master-disciple love to become young love, and then true love.
Yang Guo was a poor kid at the first, he never knew how his parents died, due to the secrets kept by Guo Jing and Huang Rong (The famous husband and wife in the story), and they didn't really teach Yang anything on martial art. Growing up in an environment without love and care from what he sees, the whole world seems so cruel to him.
Finally, Guo Jing sent Yang to Mountain of Zhong Nan, which there Yang again experienced another cruelty by the mates there...He was in bad luck, but in good luck at the same time. He founded a way in to a tomb, which he met his first and only love in his whole life - Xiao Long Nv...This beautiful girl was actually older than Yang 2 to 3 years, but due to long term of practicing martial arts without any disturbance (desire), the look was so elegant and yet cold in the inside. She was trained not to leave the tomb for the whole life, and was also trained well with her skills. This meeting changed both of their lives forever.
As time, Yang was been kicked out from Mountain of Zhong Nan, and Yang started his own life with Xiao Long Nv inside the tomb.
They still need to come out, Yang would never bear ti stay inside, he is still young. But, Xiao Long Nv without any experience outside the world, she was been raped accidentally by one of the disciples of Quan Zhen, and everything change again and again...
In between Yang and Xiao Long Nv, it was just plainly master-disciple thingy, which after both of them left, they became lovers. Difficulties happen, and because Xiao Long Nv was Yang's master in martial art. Logically and culturally, they weren't suppose to be together, so called complicated relationship in the all the eyes of people during that time.
Yang achieve the martial arts level into that no one can really crack him down except for few, but, he was also a man that kept his promise, and also like to help (Robin Hood) like type of master.
Yang and Xiao Long Nv was meant to divide 16 years, and things gone in all ways. Yang became more and more stronger, and Xiao Long Nv, without any news from anyone, he was still waiting for the 16 years time to come.
The love between this 2 people might sound a bit mind blowing, and to the extend of never been accepted in a way round, but, it was true love that made them finally met each other beyond the cliff, and is what love drags them so far and so close to each other.
Love in them was so strong, which only will be in novels rather than the reality outside the world. We might always questioning ourselves why we never get to love anyone that we wanted to love like Yang Guo and Xiao Long Nv, since they can do it, why can't we?
Love was not a easy way to go along with, and it's not a thing to gamble.
Love of Yang to Xiao Long Nv, was true firm. Love, friendship, bromance and patriotic love to your country was actually what the novel was about, but, without love as a spice inside, story would be different.
Yang and Xiao Long Nv, The Legend of the Condor Hero, which they never ask, never question, and this was what they were all the time. Love the country, Love each other more than themselves. You might want to call this a sacrificial love, unworthy love. But, it is love that also made the story to live.
Martial arts is not just about fighting, its also about humble and learn how be a good person in life.
Legends and legacy can be created, so like the condor hero did, with love.
Monday, 26 September 2011
Amazing + Grace = Friends
Again another hardly to sleep night, where I was sitting in front of my laptop again the usual night life of Teoh...Every night she would be sitting in front, and thinking of any topics to write on / blog on...In fact, tonight, again, she was about to blog about someone in her life, that means so much to her..These someone, mostly appear in large group of people, and they were part of the supplements in life...
Her friends are the topic that she was about to lay on and think...Now, only this night, where she had a simple conversation with her friends, mentally, she was expressing her own feelings towards her friends in her dreams right now at this moment...
I never really sit down and think of my friends, and she was actually just refresh her friends list...2 days back, she was talking to one of her friend, and this friend divide friend into 3 adorable categories, which was close, not close and super not close...Where she kind of disagree with it, but to another point she agrees with it...
And on the second thought, it was not wrong to divide it like that, but it's just not fair to certain friends...I would like to start with the 1st to the last...And here it goes:
Amazing + Grace = Friends...
Close friends : Since mentioned close, you can talk whatever you want and no secrets in between and mostly secrets will be safer than inside a safe box...We know each other like the back of the your own hands, and they will love you the way who you are, need no pretends nor mask to hide yourself behind...It was just being you yourself in front of them, and they would love the old you...
Not Close friends : I can't really recall back on how he categorize this, but from mine point, it was something like this ; where this category of friends, are friends that would only do what is half of close friends, which they will help you only when they can and they are able to do so...And they are mostly to be friends are suitable for having fun, doing mind-blowing stuffs together with you but not to the extend...They were still your friends, but just the quarter / half of close friends...They will help you...
Super not close friends : He categorize it very adorable this time, mostly was Hi and Bye type of it when they met each other, and they were usually always busy with something when they noticed each other around, where only met twice or third time in a week...They were still your friends, but half / quarter of not close friends, and they were certain times are being to real...But, real is good, it helps to cultivate the understanding of true world outside...It was a dramatic world...
朋友可以很简单，也可以很复杂。如果要交朋友，首先要把自己变成愿意叫朋友的立场。当你在埋怨没有朋友的同时，也要想一想，自己是否是一个称职的朋友。Friends can be difficult, and can be simple...If you want to have friends, you must first be one of it, and to moment you complaint your surrounding without any friends ; I urged you to recall were you a good friend to your peers or not...Do not ask how much your friends can contribute to you, ask how much you can give to your friend...
This is a give and take, not touch and go...Its not fast lane, but slow lane with patience and time to build a strong friendship...Quarrels may occur, cold war may trigger, but this was life and friends are all about, just to sit beside each other even though it was such a simple action to commit...
朋友一生一起走，那些日子不再有，一句话，一辈子，一生情，一杯酒...
Simple friendship starts with give and concern, and the most important spice is LOVE and TRUST...Trust them, and love them...Let them know that no matter what happens, you were always there for them...
There might be 3 categories of friends, but, not really happen in my life...As long as they called, they needed me, I will help...Hi and Bye type was simple, as least there's a Hi and Bye, which that already gave me a message to remind me, friends can be categorize, but, as least there is a common word, which was FRIEND...
Dear friends, no matter how many of you read this message, but, I just want to say, thanks for being my friend in my life, and it was truly an amazing grace to have friends caring for you and love you the way you are, so, dear friends, words are not strong enough to express my love and loyalty to all of you...But, I do love you all the way you all are, Hi and Bye might be our least conversation, but, it was our friendship that made us going along our life, and I truly appreciate what friends are for...And, it was truly a grace in my life, which was a gift that each humans have equally = friends...
Her friends are the topic that she was about to lay on and think...Now, only this night, where she had a simple conversation with her friends, mentally, she was expressing her own feelings towards her friends in her dreams right now at this moment...
I never really sit down and think of my friends, and she was actually just refresh her friends list...2 days back, she was talking to one of her friend, and this friend divide friend into 3 adorable categories, which was close, not close and super not close...Where she kind of disagree with it, but to another point she agrees with it...
And on the second thought, it was not wrong to divide it like that, but it's just not fair to certain friends...I would like to start with the 1st to the last...And here it goes:
Amazing + Grace = Friends...
Close friends : Since mentioned close, you can talk whatever you want and no secrets in between and mostly secrets will be safer than inside a safe box...We know each other like the back of the your own hands, and they will love you the way who you are, need no pretends nor mask to hide yourself behind...It was just being you yourself in front of them, and they would love the old you...
Not Close friends : I can't really recall back on how he categorize this, but from mine point, it was something like this ; where this category of friends, are friends that would only do what is half of close friends, which they will help you only when they can and they are able to do so...And they are mostly to be friends are suitable for having fun, doing mind-blowing stuffs together with you but not to the extend...They were still your friends, but just the quarter / half of close friends...They will help you...
Super not close friends : He categorize it very adorable this time, mostly was Hi and Bye type of it when they met each other, and they were usually always busy with something when they noticed each other around, where only met twice or third time in a week...They were still your friends, but half / quarter of not close friends, and they were certain times are being to real...But, real is good, it helps to cultivate the understanding of true world outside...It was a dramatic world...
朋友可以很简单，也可以很复杂。如果要交朋友，首先要把自己变成愿意叫朋友的立场。当你在埋怨没有朋友的同时，也要想一想，自己是否是一个称职的朋友。Friends can be difficult, and can be simple...If you want to have friends, you must first be one of it, and to moment you complaint your surrounding without any friends ; I urged you to recall were you a good friend to your peers or not...Do not ask how much your friends can contribute to you, ask how much you can give to your friend...
This is a give and take, not touch and go...Its not fast lane, but slow lane with patience and time to build a strong friendship...Quarrels may occur, cold war may trigger, but this was life and friends are all about, just to sit beside each other even though it was such a simple action to commit...
朋友一生一起走，那些日子不再有，一句话，一辈子，一生情，一杯酒...
Simple friendship starts with give and concern, and the most important spice is LOVE and TRUST...Trust them, and love them...Let them know that no matter what happens, you were always there for them...
There might be 3 categories of friends, but, not really happen in my life...As long as they called, they needed me, I will help...Hi and Bye type was simple, as least there's a Hi and Bye, which that already gave me a message to remind me, friends can be categorize, but, as least there is a common word, which was FRIEND...
Dear friends, no matter how many of you read this message, but, I just want to say, thanks for being my friend in my life, and it was truly an amazing grace to have friends caring for you and love you the way you are, so, dear friends, words are not strong enough to express my love and loyalty to all of you...But, I do love you all the way you all are, Hi and Bye might be our least conversation, but, it was our friendship that made us going along our life, and I truly appreciate what friends are for...And, it was truly a grace in my life, which was a gift that each humans have equally = friends...
Saturday, 24 September 2011
Management
It was such a random topic, and it was also a problem faced by so many students especially in college and university students...
There was once my life was too unbalanced, tired of everything...For that moment you'll just want to lay down in your bed, off your phone and do nothing...
It was easier to say than done...Loads of things are unexpected...And I understand...
Management can be easy, so as difficult...
Management to me was a word, but difficult to execute, where time to time my plans are there, for sure certain something more important chipped in and made it so difficult to made choices...
It can be perfect, and it can be worst, when you planned, and it was so nice to follow, and a sudden plan might change it for the rest, and the fun part is that you need to alter from time to time...
There's a saying : Planning never beats changing, 计划永远底不过变化...
Plan change due to changes...And it was cliche, but, it was true...
No matter how detail you plan, changes will do their job..At least, consolation here is that, when there is a planning, there is a chance...At least it was planned, not really last minute for everything...
Time management, self management will always a curse for me to break, and time to time my plans always get screwed even though I planned at the first place, for times, I would never lay my trust on plans, it was be change anyway...
Not to be a pessimist, but, sad to say, plans seldom work on me...I had to clear everything, before I make sure everything was so called "planned"...Organizing events are different, those are firm decisions, and they were on schedule...
What I was stressing here is myself planning and management...The moment I make sure nothing happen, there will be something happen...The moment it was confirmed free, then plans chipped in...
I can't really promise anything early, because good things happen to frequent to trust, like everything was in plan, and that was the scary part...When bad things happened, you'll miss your steps, and finally ended up fail your life up...
Time anticipation, management's important element...Time was so less, and you only had 24 hours a day to complete all the stuffs, which it was change in just a sudden...
It's not disaster that you might can predict earlier...A simple phone call might change 1 week's plan...
With no expectations, I always had to drag answers and finally ended up forgotten what I need to do next...
I would only write down what was important, and what I needed to took in account...
My management for now : Change according to what was suppose to be changed..Never ever anticipate...
There was once my life was too unbalanced, tired of everything...For that moment you'll just want to lay down in your bed, off your phone and do nothing...
It was easier to say than done...Loads of things are unexpected...And I understand...
Management can be easy, so as difficult...
Management to me was a word, but difficult to execute, where time to time my plans are there, for sure certain something more important chipped in and made it so difficult to made choices...
It can be perfect, and it can be worst, when you planned, and it was so nice to follow, and a sudden plan might change it for the rest, and the fun part is that you need to alter from time to time...
There's a saying : Planning never beats changing, 计划永远底不过变化...
Plan change due to changes...And it was cliche, but, it was true...
No matter how detail you plan, changes will do their job..At least, consolation here is that, when there is a planning, there is a chance...At least it was planned, not really last minute for everything...
Time management, self management will always a curse for me to break, and time to time my plans always get screwed even though I planned at the first place, for times, I would never lay my trust on plans, it was be change anyway...
Not to be a pessimist, but, sad to say, plans seldom work on me...I had to clear everything, before I make sure everything was so called "planned"...Organizing events are different, those are firm decisions, and they were on schedule...
What I was stressing here is myself planning and management...The moment I make sure nothing happen, there will be something happen...The moment it was confirmed free, then plans chipped in...
I can't really promise anything early, because good things happen to frequent to trust, like everything was in plan, and that was the scary part...When bad things happened, you'll miss your steps, and finally ended up fail your life up...
Time anticipation, management's important element...Time was so less, and you only had 24 hours a day to complete all the stuffs, which it was change in just a sudden...
It's not disaster that you might can predict earlier...A simple phone call might change 1 week's plan...
With no expectations, I always had to drag answers and finally ended up forgotten what I need to do next...
I would only write down what was important, and what I needed to took in account...
My management for now : Change according to what was suppose to be changed..Never ever anticipate...
Wednesday, 21 September 2011
I can't do it Alone
It was quite a day for me...Results coming out today, and I was so eager to expect that I can do better this time, but apparently it doesn't work out most of the time...
I was in cyber cafe today, just to check out on my result, while my friends having lunch nearby...One of them came in, and the screen was still on the loading page...African drum type heart beating was so strong, and it was haunting me like old times, but it was different this time...
I finally log in, and it was still loading...I stare at my friend, and she told me it was already out...
I stone a while, I drop my bag on the floor, and I just can't took my eyes out of it...
I was so sad at that particular moment, and I was so angry at myself...Scholarship might be gone, and my CGPA drop like hell, I was so sad, I can't stop cursing, I am so sorry for her at that time, listening to me cursing...
I almost cry out loud...I just can't believe my CGPA dropped...
I can't just pretend nothing happened at all...IT DROPPED !!!!!
My friend / classmate, sitting beside me...Telling her how it was, not just about scholarship, but also how I feel, spitting out the usual things that I use to (I can do it, I know who I am and blah blah blah)...She knows how I feel, and I had so high expectations on myself, but, the results was so disappointing...Not just merely my confidences and all these, but myself inside me...Am I living for all these ???
I know I am slightly a bit different, but, that went out became a strong ego and pride inside me, telling me that you were not who you are...It was haunting me for so many times, trying hard to go through that barrier inside me, and break through so hard...Ego is controlling, pride was taking over...I KNEW IT !!!
I just can't go through that cliff, by my own...I am not strong enough mentally...
I fell down to the cliff of ego and pride...Strong from the outside, but rotten from the inside...
It was taking over and over again...I need to be firm, in fact I am trying to hard not to bother...
Yesterday night, reading her blog again (Don't Bother), preparing mentally just to make sure I didn't break down, and it went through really without bother about it...
Easier to say than done, letting it go really takes time...I can't keep sulking for the whole semester because of this, I know, and this can't be contagious...But, the whole day, I think I'm gonna mentally breakdown, especially now in the sea of ego and pride (it already happened)...
I am not strong enough, and I truly was never ever (mentally strong)...At least there's a consultation prize ( 1 A-), but still, I am not strong enough to cover it up, but, it won't happen tomorrow, but today, it might be a sleepless night...
I will try my best to get out from it, but, I can't do this alone...
I was in cyber cafe today, just to check out on my result, while my friends having lunch nearby...One of them came in, and the screen was still on the loading page...African drum type heart beating was so strong, and it was haunting me like old times, but it was different this time...
I finally log in, and it was still loading...I stare at my friend, and she told me it was already out...
I stone a while, I drop my bag on the floor, and I just can't took my eyes out of it...
I was so sad at that particular moment, and I was so angry at myself...Scholarship might be gone, and my CGPA drop like hell, I was so sad, I can't stop cursing, I am so sorry for her at that time, listening to me cursing...
I almost cry out loud...I just can't believe my CGPA dropped...
I can't just pretend nothing happened at all...IT DROPPED !!!!!
My friend / classmate, sitting beside me...Telling her how it was, not just about scholarship, but also how I feel, spitting out the usual things that I use to (I can do it, I know who I am and blah blah blah)...She knows how I feel, and I had so high expectations on myself, but, the results was so disappointing...Not just merely my confidences and all these, but myself inside me...Am I living for all these ???
I know I am slightly a bit different, but, that went out became a strong ego and pride inside me, telling me that you were not who you are...It was haunting me for so many times, trying hard to go through that barrier inside me, and break through so hard...Ego is controlling, pride was taking over...I KNEW IT !!!
I just can't go through that cliff, by my own...I am not strong enough mentally...
I fell down to the cliff of ego and pride...Strong from the outside, but rotten from the inside...
It was taking over and over again...I need to be firm, in fact I am trying to hard not to bother...
Yesterday night, reading her blog again (Don't Bother), preparing mentally just to make sure I didn't break down, and it went through really without bother about it...
Easier to say than done, letting it go really takes time...I can't keep sulking for the whole semester because of this, I know, and this can't be contagious...But, the whole day, I think I'm gonna mentally breakdown, especially now in the sea of ego and pride (it already happened)...
I am not strong enough, and I truly was never ever (mentally strong)...At least there's a consultation prize ( 1 A-), but still, I am not strong enough to cover it up, but, it won't happen tomorrow, but today, it might be a sleepless night...
I will try my best to get out from it, but, I can't do this alone...
Tuesday, 20 September 2011
Nasi Lemak: Malaysia
I was never realize that Malaysia had talents like these media people, and they were so eager to send the message to the public...
This was the 2nd time I watch local production movies at cinema, and I was never realize it would be so educational, and the message was so obvious, and Malaysians would only understand what this is all about...
The title was a common local traditional delicacy, name after Nasi Lemak...Which was so localized and it was so close to Malaysians...
The movie was about a cook that help a family get back it's restaurant operation right...Malays appeared, Baba and Nyonya appeared, Indians appeared and even Chinese appeared, it was truly to said 1 Malaysia...
The producer of this movie was from Muar (same with me), I was proud for him, not because his past actions towards government, but his courage of how he produce this movie and sending the message to everyone...
Nasi Lemak, was a purely movie that raises up how he actually loves Malaysia as his home...
Malaysia was multi cultural and multi races country, everyone had the right to voice up what they had said...The foundation of Malaysia raised from 3 different people, and it became Nasi Lemak...
Not to say that I describe my country as nasi lemak, but, it is truly a combination of various of simple spices and ingredients, and it tasted so well, just how Malaysians like nasi lemak...
Nasi, sambal, telur, ayam rendang, ikan bilis and kacang, all these were just simple, but, joining together with all these, it became one of the symbolic must try food in Malaysia, and people loves it the way it taste, so original, and who knows, it was just a combinations of a few simple stuffs...
At first, I though Nasi Lemak was just another movie on expressing stuffs and complains, but, it went out not, and it really breaks my glass when I was watching it...
The message was clear, that we Malaysians had what we had, and we were grew up in this particular land with zero visits of tsunami, tidal waves and stuffs, and we enjoyed what Malaysia actually had...We may not have 4 seasons a year, we may not have big lands like the States, but we have the tropical feel that the others was looking for..We had the biggest flower in the world, we had 2 world heritage, we had wonderful cultural background, and we have beautiful islands to rest on...This was what Malaysia had...
Small Malaysians like me, having dreams that our country would somehow change, but, I would say it right now to remain what Malaysia is having....
Malaysia just celebrated it's Malaysia Day and National Day...I just can't believe that our country had grew so long, and it was still Malaysia like...
I love this movie, not just the creativity and the laughters, because I grew up here as a Malaysian for 20 years, and I was so grateful to what I have right now...Name Wee (the director), last song was about how Malaysia was truly are, and it was true that Malaysians are just like nasi lemak...Without any of the ingredients mentioned above, Malaysia wouldn't be that nice as nasi lemak...
I have a dream, dreaming to Malaysia, that it will continue to grow, no matter how it was, Malaysia is still my home...How round the moon was in the overseas, and nothing beats more than my home, Malaysia, which was just like nasi lemak, making its way through to become a star in Asia and the world...
This was the 2nd time I watch local production movies at cinema, and I was never realize it would be so educational, and the message was so obvious, and Malaysians would only understand what this is all about...
The title was a common local traditional delicacy, name after Nasi Lemak...Which was so localized and it was so close to Malaysians...
The movie was about a cook that help a family get back it's restaurant operation right...Malays appeared, Baba and Nyonya appeared, Indians appeared and even Chinese appeared, it was truly to said 1 Malaysia...
The producer of this movie was from Muar (same with me), I was proud for him, not because his past actions towards government, but his courage of how he produce this movie and sending the message to everyone...
Nasi Lemak, was a purely movie that raises up how he actually loves Malaysia as his home...
Malaysia was multi cultural and multi races country, everyone had the right to voice up what they had said...The foundation of Malaysia raised from 3 different people, and it became Nasi Lemak...
Not to say that I describe my country as nasi lemak, but, it is truly a combination of various of simple spices and ingredients, and it tasted so well, just how Malaysians like nasi lemak...
Nasi, sambal, telur, ayam rendang, ikan bilis and kacang, all these were just simple, but, joining together with all these, it became one of the symbolic must try food in Malaysia, and people loves it the way it taste, so original, and who knows, it was just a combinations of a few simple stuffs...
At first, I though Nasi Lemak was just another movie on expressing stuffs and complains, but, it went out not, and it really breaks my glass when I was watching it...
The message was clear, that we Malaysians had what we had, and we were grew up in this particular land with zero visits of tsunami, tidal waves and stuffs, and we enjoyed what Malaysia actually had...We may not have 4 seasons a year, we may not have big lands like the States, but we have the tropical feel that the others was looking for..We had the biggest flower in the world, we had 2 world heritage, we had wonderful cultural background, and we have beautiful islands to rest on...This was what Malaysia had...
Small Malaysians like me, having dreams that our country would somehow change, but, I would say it right now to remain what Malaysia is having....
Malaysia just celebrated it's Malaysia Day and National Day...I just can't believe that our country had grew so long, and it was still Malaysia like...
I love this movie, not just the creativity and the laughters, because I grew up here as a Malaysian for 20 years, and I was so grateful to what I have right now...Name Wee (the director), last song was about how Malaysia was truly are, and it was true that Malaysians are just like nasi lemak...Without any of the ingredients mentioned above, Malaysia wouldn't be that nice as nasi lemak...
I have a dream, dreaming to Malaysia, that it will continue to grow, no matter how it was, Malaysia is still my home...How round the moon was in the overseas, and nothing beats more than my home, Malaysia, which was just like nasi lemak, making its way through to become a star in Asia and the world...
你不会是一个人, You were never alone
当很多人都说我可以的时候，他们真的可以证明我可以。
当我告诉自己我可以的时候，我真的可以。
力量很大，自信心也很大的时候，往往都会和许多美好的东西擦肩而过。
不错，我相信每个人都可以。
但是，当你每次说你可以的时候，你会觉得累。
累了，你想要做什么？
累了，你会有许多想法；放弃，丢辞职信，什么都有，和红豆冰没有差别。
不过，这个世界没有了我可以，它一样转，因为它不会因为你一个人的累而停下来。
不过，当你累的时候；请想起身边的同你一起奋斗的伙伴。
累了，就好好休息。把自己交给自己。你不会是一个人，You were never alone...
一个人说我可以，和许多人一起说我可以的力量往往都不一样。
在这里想和大家分享一个故事：
从前有个人，经常带着我可以的面具到处走。这个面具为她带来了很多可能；也同时许多的不可能。这个面具；为这个人的生命增添了许多的色彩；丰富了她的时间。很可惜；生活也开始变得不一样。身体上的累，往往都比不上心灵上的累。每个人都有每个人的烦恼，每个人都要继续每个人的生活，兼顾多种要职。如果她在这个时候喊累，想要放弃，其他人算什么？每个人都忙，她勉强走下去。最后，在一个生活营里的一个晚上，她向所有人诉说她内心的话。她哭了，队友们的付出，队友们的关心，让她开始觉得自己真的不是一个人。以前学长和老师都告诉她，我们不是一个人在做，是一起做。到了当天晚上，她才真正了解什么是teamwork and together。她回来学校的那一刻，很开心，掩饰不到心中的喜悦。她相信队友，相信自己。她终于了解了，明白了。现在的她，真的放开了，相信自己，相信队友。因为，她不是一个人。
完。。
相信别人和相信自己的感觉是不一样的。她放开了之后，虽然工作照旧要做，不过，不会像以前一样盲目；她和队友们也很开心在完成任务。虽然需要时间来证明大家的脚步；再回首，脚步渐渐清晰，脚步渐渐明朗，一起见证走过这条路。心态改变，所有的一切都会改变，力量也不同，请收住那一份感觉。她们一起创造属于我们自己的脚步，平起平坐，同手同脚走下去。
Friends are there for each other, even though it was just as simple as sitting beside you, you were never alone, because people standing beside you, supporting beside you had a reason, they will trust you how with how much you trust them...So, trust them, you were never alone...
当我告诉自己我可以的时候，我真的可以。
力量很大，自信心也很大的时候，往往都会和许多美好的东西擦肩而过。
不错，我相信每个人都可以。
但是，当你每次说你可以的时候，你会觉得累。
累了，你想要做什么？
累了，你会有许多想法；放弃，丢辞职信，什么都有，和红豆冰没有差别。
不过，这个世界没有了我可以，它一样转，因为它不会因为你一个人的累而停下来。
不过，当你累的时候；请想起身边的同你一起奋斗的伙伴。
累了，就好好休息。把自己交给自己。你不会是一个人，You were never alone...
一个人说我可以，和许多人一起说我可以的力量往往都不一样。
在这里想和大家分享一个故事：
从前有个人，经常带着我可以的面具到处走。这个面具为她带来了很多可能；也同时许多的不可能。这个面具；为这个人的生命增添了许多的色彩；丰富了她的时间。很可惜；生活也开始变得不一样。身体上的累，往往都比不上心灵上的累。每个人都有每个人的烦恼，每个人都要继续每个人的生活，兼顾多种要职。如果她在这个时候喊累，想要放弃，其他人算什么？每个人都忙，她勉强走下去。最后，在一个生活营里的一个晚上，她向所有人诉说她内心的话。她哭了，队友们的付出，队友们的关心，让她开始觉得自己真的不是一个人。以前学长和老师都告诉她，我们不是一个人在做，是一起做。到了当天晚上，她才真正了解什么是teamwork and together。她回来学校的那一刻，很开心，掩饰不到心中的喜悦。她相信队友，相信自己。她终于了解了，明白了。现在的她，真的放开了，相信自己，相信队友。因为，她不是一个人。
完。。
相信别人和相信自己的感觉是不一样的。她放开了之后，虽然工作照旧要做，不过，不会像以前一样盲目；她和队友们也很开心在完成任务。虽然需要时间来证明大家的脚步；再回首，脚步渐渐清晰，脚步渐渐明朗，一起见证走过这条路。心态改变，所有的一切都会改变，力量也不同，请收住那一份感觉。她们一起创造属于我们自己的脚步，平起平坐，同手同脚走下去。
Friends are there for each other, even though it was just as simple as sitting beside you, you were never alone, because people standing beside you, supporting beside you had a reason, they will trust you how with how much you trust them...So, trust them, you were never alone...
Monday, 12 September 2011
中秋
中秋到了，又是同样的时间。
两年了，时间过得快；当中改变的事情也非常快。
两年在吉隆坡；中秋都落在开学前的一天或者两天；都有机会和家人共庆佳节。
家乡的小孩都很多，表弟表妹们大部分都很小。
佳节前夕；小孩们开始点灯笼，玩蜡烛，等等等的新注意，就是为了让气氛和回忆多添了几些。
外婆家有空间，大人们就如平时吃喝聊天；小孩就到处闹。
我和妹妹就是看管小孩的人；只要确保他们没有受伤，基本上都是一起陪着他们一起玩。
回忆不起几年前中秋如何过；有一年的中秋记忆特别深。
那年的中秋，阿姨还没离开；恰好我在，恰好阿姨回来了。
我也终于看见她。
当晚外婆家有简单的聚餐，朋友亲戚都来，热闹非凡。
阿姨身体不适，也亲自下一点点厨（她的强项就是很会下厨）。好久没有吃到她亲手做的菜。
当晚我也很欢喜，家人都在，似乎我已经满足了。
我很怀念当晚。因为，我最后一次见到阿姨，也是当晚中秋。
2009年的中秋，是我和阿姨最后一个中秋。
中秋本来就是亲朋好友相聚的好日。阿姨的离去，似乎对家人多了一点什么，同时也少了一些什么；都是一些不明不白的感觉；有点矛盾。
中秋庆团圆，我没法子陪家人，有点忙。家人也明白，不过，自己心里思念家里的感觉却是一天比一天浓厚，一天比一天更加思念家人。
妹妹也在另一个国家，也是第一个，妹妹不在家的中秋。
相信妹妹和她的朋友都有同样的心情，思念家人。
不代表悲伤，只是希望以后有更多的时间，留给家人。
中秋节快乐。。
两年了，时间过得快；当中改变的事情也非常快。
两年在吉隆坡；中秋都落在开学前的一天或者两天；都有机会和家人共庆佳节。
家乡的小孩都很多，表弟表妹们大部分都很小。
佳节前夕；小孩们开始点灯笼，玩蜡烛，等等等的新注意，就是为了让气氛和回忆多添了几些。
外婆家有空间，大人们就如平时吃喝聊天；小孩就到处闹。
我和妹妹就是看管小孩的人；只要确保他们没有受伤，基本上都是一起陪着他们一起玩。
回忆不起几年前中秋如何过；有一年的中秋记忆特别深。
那年的中秋，阿姨还没离开；恰好我在，恰好阿姨回来了。
我也终于看见她。
当晚外婆家有简单的聚餐，朋友亲戚都来，热闹非凡。
阿姨身体不适，也亲自下一点点厨（她的强项就是很会下厨）。好久没有吃到她亲手做的菜。
当晚我也很欢喜，家人都在，似乎我已经满足了。
我很怀念当晚。因为，我最后一次见到阿姨，也是当晚中秋。
2009年的中秋，是我和阿姨最后一个中秋。
中秋本来就是亲朋好友相聚的好日。阿姨的离去，似乎对家人多了一点什么，同时也少了一些什么；都是一些不明不白的感觉；有点矛盾。
中秋庆团圆，我没法子陪家人，有点忙。家人也明白，不过，自己心里思念家里的感觉却是一天比一天浓厚，一天比一天更加思念家人。
妹妹也在另一个国家，也是第一个，妹妹不在家的中秋。
相信妹妹和她的朋友都有同样的心情，思念家人。
不代表悲伤，只是希望以后有更多的时间，留给家人。
中秋节快乐。。
Friday, 9 September 2011
若缘要我知，不知也要知
今晚相信又是一个难以入眠的夜晚。。
独自一人坐在客厅，面对电脑；似乎是一种习惯。
偶尔翻翻面子书，偶尔翻翻部落格；不知不觉也变成一种习惯。
今晚很特别，非常特别。
在我耳中盘旋的歌曲是：悟。
来自新少林寺的主题曲；刘德华是这首歌的作词人，也是这首歌的歌手；作曲人是赵钦。
旋律很美，词也非常漂亮。
这不是我要诉说的重点。
我要来和大家说一个故事：想说。
切勿误会我在绕圈子，故事的名称就是想说。
有个朋友在面子书上收到了一个讯息；每个人都很有兴趣要知道内容是什么。这位朋友也就把内容放在面子书。我本想留言；欲言又止；这就是我的习惯；想说，却又不想说。我反复看着所有的留言。脑子也反复思考，到底要不要留言表态；又是欲言又止的思维告诉我千万不要把自己卷入；会把事情弄得更加复杂；更加玄。
有时，一个简单的留言；会给自己增添不必要的麻烦。
我不想制造麻烦；更不想为别人带来不必要的麻烦。
心中的两个我在挣扎；在怂恿，在做各种的注意。
我当下乱了；我当下烦了。因为我想知道，我想说 - 欲言又止。
我站且放下手上的一些东西；听着这首歌：悟。
多一物，却添了太多危险；少一物；贪嗔痴会少一点。
若是缘，再苦味也是甜。
凡人却视而不见，规矩定方圆。
是缘非缘；我们怎么算也算不到。
我看见了朋友的故事；有一股冲动；想直接了解到底发生了什么事。
好乱，心里真的很乱，想知，却又不想知。欲言又止。
我也很害怕；害怕我自己知道了过后会有什么样的反应。
悟；告诉我多一物，却添了太多危险。
我发现；物并不只是我们看得见，摸得到。听见看见的；也是物。
不是我不关心这位朋友的遭遇；想知道事实真相的趋势心之下，我还是犹豫不决，到底问还是不问。因为，我知道的事情不多；多数都是听。不能就这样下定论。
我一边解决手头上的东西，一边想着 - 悟 - 这首歌。
歌的最后有一句词：简简单单陪你走好每一天。
词；仿佛告诉我该怎么做。
如果是缘份，就算知道了，也要以平常心对待，以平等心对待。
若缘要我知，不知也要知。
我把一切交给缘分，一切交给朋友。
时间到了，缘份到了，我就会知道。朋友要我知，不知也要知。
感谢这首歌；给了我心中我要的答案。虽然很想问，很想知道；可是，知道了又是如何；不知道又如何？
还是那一句话：若缘要我知，不知也要知。
倒不如，简简单单过日子。不是要放弃好奇心和关心朋友的那一个责任，而是把好奇心放在其他位置。朋友有难，我依然会互相立挺到底，尽量做到公平对待每一位朋友。
缘份会告诉我，到底我需要不需要知道。
因为我相信朋友，我相信缘份。
独自一人坐在客厅，面对电脑；似乎是一种习惯。
偶尔翻翻面子书，偶尔翻翻部落格；不知不觉也变成一种习惯。
今晚很特别，非常特别。
在我耳中盘旋的歌曲是：悟。
来自新少林寺的主题曲；刘德华是这首歌的作词人，也是这首歌的歌手；作曲人是赵钦。
旋律很美，词也非常漂亮。
这不是我要诉说的重点。
我要来和大家说一个故事：想说。
切勿误会我在绕圈子，故事的名称就是想说。
有个朋友在面子书上收到了一个讯息；每个人都很有兴趣要知道内容是什么。这位朋友也就把内容放在面子书。我本想留言；欲言又止；这就是我的习惯；想说，却又不想说。我反复看着所有的留言。脑子也反复思考，到底要不要留言表态；又是欲言又止的思维告诉我千万不要把自己卷入；会把事情弄得更加复杂；更加玄。
有时，一个简单的留言；会给自己增添不必要的麻烦。
我不想制造麻烦；更不想为别人带来不必要的麻烦。
心中的两个我在挣扎；在怂恿，在做各种的注意。
我当下乱了；我当下烦了。因为我想知道，我想说 - 欲言又止。
我站且放下手上的一些东西；听着这首歌：悟。
多一物，却添了太多危险；少一物；贪嗔痴会少一点。
若是缘，再苦味也是甜。
凡人却视而不见，规矩定方圆。
是缘非缘；我们怎么算也算不到。
我看见了朋友的故事；有一股冲动；想直接了解到底发生了什么事。
好乱，心里真的很乱，想知，却又不想知。欲言又止。
我也很害怕；害怕我自己知道了过后会有什么样的反应。
悟；告诉我多一物，却添了太多危险。
我发现；物并不只是我们看得见，摸得到。听见看见的；也是物。
不是我不关心这位朋友的遭遇；想知道事实真相的趋势心之下，我还是犹豫不决，到底问还是不问。因为，我知道的事情不多；多数都是听。不能就这样下定论。
我一边解决手头上的东西，一边想着 - 悟 - 这首歌。
歌的最后有一句词：简简单单陪你走好每一天。
词；仿佛告诉我该怎么做。
如果是缘份，就算知道了，也要以平常心对待，以平等心对待。
若缘要我知，不知也要知。
我把一切交给缘分，一切交给朋友。
时间到了，缘份到了，我就会知道。朋友要我知，不知也要知。
感谢这首歌；给了我心中我要的答案。虽然很想问，很想知道；可是，知道了又是如何；不知道又如何？
还是那一句话：若缘要我知，不知也要知。
倒不如，简简单单过日子。不是要放弃好奇心和关心朋友的那一个责任，而是把好奇心放在其他位置。朋友有难，我依然会互相立挺到底，尽量做到公平对待每一位朋友。
缘份会告诉我，到底我需要不需要知道。
因为我相信朋友，我相信缘份。
Thursday, 8 September 2011
Again an Inspiration from a Friend
Yesterday chatting with a friend of mine, saw one of his status on Facebook, with a quadruple sentence on it...
It goes like this:
It goes like this:
Time is precious because we can't control it
Money is precious because we never have enough
Friendships are priceless because friendships is easy to break
We appreciate things that are fragile important or can't control
It was inspirational, and I decided to blog about it...But I improvised a bit and tell him my version of it...
Time is precious because it flies
Money is precious because it's hard to earn
Friendships are priceless because friends are part of your life
I keep the last sentence...Here it goes again :
- Time is precious because we can't control it, and we can't stop it from flying away, so.....Time flies, and it's fast...
- Money is precious, because it was never enough, and everyone needs money, and the world will never be enough with money, in another way it was hard to earn money; this is the reason why money was never enough because it was hard to earn...
- Friendships are priceless, because they are your friends; you can't buy a friend with a price even though each one has a price,but priceless without an amount...Because they were part of your life, you will never live alone...
Dedicated to him, and the rest of my friend that inspired me in this topic...As I wrote further, I had no idea on how to express myself...
In randomly, I would love to end in this way...
As I foresee, there would be more inspiration to come...
Thank you my friend...
Sunday, 4 September 2011
音乐
音乐；为世界增添了另一个舞台。
音乐；为人类增添了一个共同的语言。
音乐；征服了每个人的心灵；不仅填补，而是丰富。
音乐，让人类多了一项工具；来歌颂他们所喜爱的人事物。
音乐；让人类出了用语言的方式来表达自己内心世界，也可以用音乐来传达自己心内的感受。
往往，音乐的效力；比滔滔不绝的话语来得更加有共鸣。
音乐离不开唱歌，唱歌离不开歌手。能够让音乐充满活力的歌手，坦白说很多。
我中意的，却只有90年代的。老了点，听起来，味道还是如此美味。
我喜爱的90金曲；有很多。太多了。
接下来的歌词，都是老朋友，也都是大家熟悉的旋律：
与你分享的快乐，胜过独自拥有。因为懂得分，所以懂得享。分享，有分；才有享有的乐趣。
我知道我的未来不是梦，我认真地过每一分钟。我们都必须认真地过每一分钟，就为了创造我的梦。
把握生命里的每一分钟，全力以赴我们心中的梦，不经历风雨，怎么见彩虹，没有人能随随便便成功。对，一帆风不顺的人生，才是有色彩的人生。
I believe I can fly, I believe I can touch the sky, I think about it every night and day, spread my wings and fly away。。人不是因为拥有梦想而伟大，而是因为坚持实现梦想而伟大，就是因为坚持自己能够飞，人类最后真的能够飞。
But to look beyond the glory is the hardest part, a hero's strength is measured by it's heart。。一个人的心量越大，能够容人的度量也很大，因为，宰相肚里能撑船。
You're here, there's nothing I fear, and I know, that my heart and my heart will go on and on。。真正的爱，不是要陪着你爱的人离开，为你爱的人好好活下去，就是最大的安慰。
音乐；丰富了我的生命。。
我曾经异想天开，希望能够在音乐里发展。发现，自己的兴趣，始终不在这里，所以，只好放弃。
之后找到了属于自己的未来（新闻系），就再也没有想到要往音乐的领域发展，偶尔回顾以前的梦想，还是觉得自己可笑。
音乐；有疗伤的作用；有鼓励的作用，也有教育的作用。
音乐，就是如此奇妙。能够和人类谱出非同凡响的效应。
有音乐的地方，就有光明。可以这么说。
Saturday, 3 September 2011
Holidayzs Recently
Few things come up to my brainzsss during holidays...And it was simply perfect when I can stay at home with family (it's what I usually did, this time my sister wasn't around)...
The night before I came back from hostel, I accidentally/unintentionally injured my leg once again (left side), so, em....Pain of course, because Mr. Left here was injured by the first time ( I guess), so, now, both left and right injured, I shall pronounce both of my legs superb, because I had to take care of two legs which was started to fragile (it's going to be a hard time, but, f*** it), no point crunching yourself up and stop playing what I love, just don't get to hard on it...
My holidays starts in vein, because I was kinda limping for the past days, and it was so not cool...
Family plans : my aunt was here, that was already enough, we just see her once a year, it was my dad's only sister, so....We were having fun...
Malacca as usual, one of my family's favorite spot of destination (30 minutes drive, it was pretty close)...
Jonker Walk was my favorite, from the starting to the end with non-stop eating fiesta...I love it to the maximum, with all the nice stuffs to eye on, even though I wasn't attracted to certain stalls, but enjoy by just watching it...
I love movies to the maximum as well, with Astro in my house, the instant joy is to have the remote control on your hand, by just switching channels during the commercial breaks....Brothers are cool, when they weren't fighting the controls with you...Since I am at home, my laptop will be, and ends up he started to facing it as well (most of the time)...
I sweep only 3 currently during the breaks : Rio (DVD), Cars 2 (cinema), The Priest (DVD)...
I had camps coming up : 12th to 18th non-stop, which it was another fun for me in holidayzs, I like adventurous camps, so do seminars or talks or something to do with building yourself...SO, for camp organizers, to attract me in holidays (to be frank), the camps must/or contains stuffs that mentioned above, so, be honest here to all of camp organizers, working camp works on me as well, so might as well can attract me with that...Just to be honest here, no offence to all camp organizers (I am a part of it before)...
Me stick with food loads of time in holidays, this is why I was always the same (size), I just can't stop eating, especially TV is around...
I love sports, but can't play it for this time, my leg was in stake (still look swelling), but, since I can walk, o sign of fractured, so need to get it really recovered, for the sake of camp and sports...
I should start my usual reading, since I bringing one of the books back, I should finish it, at least before I started renew/chip in new stocks...
Updating sports would be my favorites as well...The most unforgettable was the MU vs Arsenal, daddy was excited, and it was contagious, because it was an epic with a score of 8-2, so, I was excited as well...I love F1, and I can watch it finally at home, kinda miss the racing sounds and engines of the cars...Badminton was over, I miss the World Cup, my dad miss it also...Loads more to come, so, forget it...
Okay, I seem nothing else to add on...Camps going on, I need plan and work for it...And, I need to make sure my legs are suitable for it...Me dad bring me for the traditional treatment (damn pain........), but, for the sake of it, I had to go through....Now, limping a bit...But no worries, for the sake of my camps and sports, I'll do it, and definitely I can...
So, updates done, got to go for the sport now (TV I mean)....
Monday, 29 August 2011
Photography
I love taking pictures the moment I came to college...
And I am happy to say that college life inspired me to made photography as another hobby of mine...
Macro shots on flowers, trees, or something had to do with nature and scenery would be my favorite type of photography, models as well...But, taking models needs loads of skills, this is where I need to improve...
Friends of mine gave me short tutorials on photo shooting : Lynn and Simon, including David Khor...
One of my lecturer: Ms Chu, without her teaching me on the focus and some techniques, I might lost as well, credits to you Ms Chu...
What makes photography so special to me ??
I love natural shots, with the poses of the most natural of human faces...
The moment I turn around with a camera on hand, friends will pose automatically, and this was what I'm looking for, natural smile and poses...Often I asked / request people to pose, but, still natural though, because it was their lovely smiles and expressions...
I was surrounded with people with classic poses and they were good at it...
Credits for my friend that always borrow me their cameras for shooting...
My skills had loads of place for improvement...And photography is an art....and professions as well...
One of the worst I had on hand is my writing skills, I can't do good description writings like how my classmates did...How I wish I could be like them...If only, I would be more better in writing....
I enjoy reading photo captions as well, too bad I can do only simple captions...
There was once I visited an exhibition in college, it was all about arts...I was fond to one of the pictures, it's about the water drops...
I like sentimental and inspirational captions, it touches me most of the time, and motivated me to move on to take more pictures and improve myself in the future...
Inspiration not just only comes from articles and stuffs, but a simple picture can deliver a good message behind...
Photography to me, is the moment of capturing happiness and keeping memories in safe, even though it would be blur for times, but, it was one of your happy moments....
And I am happy to say that college life inspired me to made photography as another hobby of mine...
Macro shots on flowers, trees, or something had to do with nature and scenery would be my favorite type of photography, models as well...But, taking models needs loads of skills, this is where I need to improve...
Friends of mine gave me short tutorials on photo shooting : Lynn and Simon, including David Khor...
One of my lecturer: Ms Chu, without her teaching me on the focus and some techniques, I might lost as well, credits to you Ms Chu...
What makes photography so special to me ??
I love natural shots, with the poses of the most natural of human faces...
The moment I turn around with a camera on hand, friends will pose automatically, and this was what I'm looking for, natural smile and poses...Often I asked / request people to pose, but, still natural though, because it was their lovely smiles and expressions...
I was surrounded with people with classic poses and they were good at it...
Credits for my friend that always borrow me their cameras for shooting...
My skills had loads of place for improvement...And photography is an art....and professions as well...
One of the worst I had on hand is my writing skills, I can't do good description writings like how my classmates did...How I wish I could be like them...If only, I would be more better in writing....
I enjoy reading photo captions as well, too bad I can do only simple captions...
There was once I visited an exhibition in college, it was all about arts...I was fond to one of the pictures, it's about the water drops...
I like sentimental and inspirational captions, it touches me most of the time, and motivated me to move on to take more pictures and improve myself in the future...
Inspiration not just only comes from articles and stuffs, but a simple picture can deliver a good message behind...
Photography to me, is the moment of capturing happiness and keeping memories in safe, even though it would be blur for times, but, it was one of your happy moments....
One of the Greatest Gift
I wrote about it before..And I only show it to 1 person...
I participated a public speaking competition during my certificate time, and the title was "The Greatest Gift"...I wrote about 2 lecturers that I met, but, there are many more surprise gift from life, and I strongly believe in that...
And it was, life gave another extraordinary gift to me : DJR (Diploma in Journalism), batch 2010/2011...
I "chipped" into this family during 2010 semester 2, where I just finish my certificate...
I was totally new to this course, especially the people, I am the only one from my past course to join this, and this major was only with 20 ++ people in it, and I really never assume that...
It was kind of struggling from the beginning, when I start to having class with them...
Even dare of asking myself whether I had made the right choice or not...And to be honest, I joined certificate, and, to be frank again, certain students look down on us, because we are certificate students, the level had created the barrier between both of it...
And, I had one of the greatest surprise I had : they were friendly...
I can't really recall back who I talk to at the very 1st moment in class, I was so nervous, and if I'm not mistaken it was Sukh, and the 2nd will be Tricia or Amanda (if the order was correct)...
I get barred that semester, loads of stuffs happening on me (lost my wallet, leg get cemented), I don't blame on it, kind of angry to myself why I just can't handle my life well (out of topic a bit, so sorry)...
Okay...Back to the gifts, I was amazed with their talents, and their sense of humor...I learnt how to being modest and humble (still learning), learn how to control my emotions (still learning)...
Now, comes to list of the classmates, this style of listing ; I got it from one of my classmates, not copying (I'm copying), but thanks for giving me the idea, and here goes:
Sukh - A girl that really loves Twilight...nice to have you as a friend...
Amanda - Tall and cool...you are caring, and responsible; good in the way you are...
Tricia - Active and out-spoken...you are one of the talented emcee I had ever met...Salute to you...
Asha / Sandra - Cool and wise...you are humor sometimes...and makes me feel warm all the time...
Boon Mun - One of the most "yeng" girl I have ever met...independent, nice to have a friend that has cheer leading experiences, which was awesome...
Prem - Tall and mature...experiences from what I heard is what made you like a big brother for me as a role model in class...
Khavita - Quiet and chill...a sweet girl in the class, and wish I can as chill as you, as in the meaning of chill for you is stable...
Khana - Quiet also, and sweet...Receiving your sweet sms was loving and happy, which made my day goes on...
Shi Yan - Princess type and likes Korean pop culture, humor also...love to listen to your humors, and your cute actions, made me laugh until I can't really resists...
May May - Also princess type, clings to Korean culture as well...standing on your own opinion and go for it is what I really amazed on you...
Lan Lan - Responsible and efficient as a printing manager...And you were fast in distributing the notes, and I was always happy to receive...
Ee Li - Strong and tough...You represent Johor for SUKMA, and I amazed with a your karate level you achieved, Karate girl...
Sze Ying - Expert in drawings = artistic...I like the class t-shirt you design, even though it was simple, but, you can draw words in an artistic way, and I really amazed...
Shook Ying - Knowledgeable and mature...I know a lot of news and stories when I had conversation to you, and really, wish to team up with you again in badminton in the future...
Wai Yoke - Sincere and kind-hearted...Which you are true in the way you are...Even though didn't really had much talking with you, but, I can feel your sincere of you to your friends...
Lai Yee - Simple...Simple as in a way that you're not materialize, and you will always work your way through to what you want, which you gave me a lesson in being less desire...
Sin Mun - Cool...Living in the same block with me, I don't know that you really like to play mini games, and you really stand strong on your own opinion, firm in your own decision...which I need to learn from you...
Yishu - Funny and a good photographer...I like your pictures you took during our picnic, and you are funny in the way you comments on our DJR groups...
Chien Fei - Knowing you for just in this semester, but finding you a chill and stable student in our class, like Khavita, nice working with you in assignment even though it was just only a few times...
Andrew Stephen - Independent and good looking...And even though never really talk to you in class, but you were chill and cool in the way you are, working your own way out for your own education...
Tommy Tham - Helpful...Never really talk to you also in the class, but, seeing you helping out in driving us here and there, and 2 times being your passengers, love the songs in your car...
Kenneth Tee - Loves football and quiet...Same as other guys, never really talk to you also..Hanging out with the class (including you), laughters are there, and pro in CS...
Raja Danial - The money collector and cool...Can't really believe that you are a mix of Malay and Chinese, it was lucky to had a Malay friend that speak Chinese; you had a good sense in humor writing, I salute that...
Pang Hee - Japanese culture oriented....You reminded me one of my previous certificate classmate...your language skills inspired me during English assignment, and I'm happy to work with you in future again...
Andrew Ong - Can't forget him...Weird when I 1st know him...Uncle looking student, but, without him, our class couldn't have so much laughter...Good to have you Andrew...
Hope I didn't miss anyone out of it...
There were more to write about all of you...Old times, I blame myself why I never study well in SPM, so I would have further myself to Diploma instead of certificate...After studying certificate, thoughts change, and I was lucky that my SPM that drags me towards certificate, and certificate drags me towards all of you...And I am grateful for fate that brings me to all of you...Even though I stand on my own beliefs that I create my own destiny; but, without you all joining this remarkable journey of mine with me, things would be different...
And I truly grateful to SPM, that brings me to a wonderful certificate life; and yet, draw me to a magnificent diploma life...
I believe also we had loads of unknown surprise waiting for us, and I can assure we can go through each 1 by 1...Even though we were "out-numbered", filled with what we had, as a group of 26 people...
This was a random topic, and I improvised from what I had written previously...
Once, I would end it like this:
It was one of the greatest gift to have you all in my life, and I was grateful to certificate, that draws me to a superb life in DJR, and that tick I made in the form of choosing the course was right; because I had you all together with me...Thank you, once again...DJR...
I participated a public speaking competition during my certificate time, and the title was "The Greatest Gift"...I wrote about 2 lecturers that I met, but, there are many more surprise gift from life, and I strongly believe in that...
And it was, life gave another extraordinary gift to me : DJR (Diploma in Journalism), batch 2010/2011...
I "chipped" into this family during 2010 semester 2, where I just finish my certificate...
I was totally new to this course, especially the people, I am the only one from my past course to join this, and this major was only with 20 ++ people in it, and I really never assume that...
It was kind of struggling from the beginning, when I start to having class with them...
Even dare of asking myself whether I had made the right choice or not...And to be honest, I joined certificate, and, to be frank again, certain students look down on us, because we are certificate students, the level had created the barrier between both of it...
And, I had one of the greatest surprise I had : they were friendly...
I can't really recall back who I talk to at the very 1st moment in class, I was so nervous, and if I'm not mistaken it was Sukh, and the 2nd will be Tricia or Amanda (if the order was correct)...
I get barred that semester, loads of stuffs happening on me (lost my wallet, leg get cemented), I don't blame on it, kind of angry to myself why I just can't handle my life well (out of topic a bit, so sorry)...
Okay...Back to the gifts, I was amazed with their talents, and their sense of humor...I learnt how to being modest and humble (still learning), learn how to control my emotions (still learning)...
Now, comes to list of the classmates, this style of listing ; I got it from one of my classmates, not copying (I'm copying), but thanks for giving me the idea, and here goes:
Sukh - A girl that really loves Twilight...nice to have you as a friend...
Amanda - Tall and cool...you are caring, and responsible; good in the way you are...
Tricia - Active and out-spoken...you are one of the talented emcee I had ever met...Salute to you...
Asha / Sandra - Cool and wise...you are humor sometimes...and makes me feel warm all the time...
Boon Mun - One of the most "yeng" girl I have ever met...independent, nice to have a friend that has cheer leading experiences, which was awesome...
Prem - Tall and mature...experiences from what I heard is what made you like a big brother for me as a role model in class...
Khavita - Quiet and chill...a sweet girl in the class, and wish I can as chill as you, as in the meaning of chill for you is stable...
Khana - Quiet also, and sweet...Receiving your sweet sms was loving and happy, which made my day goes on...
Shi Yan - Princess type and likes Korean pop culture, humor also...love to listen to your humors, and your cute actions, made me laugh until I can't really resists...
May May - Also princess type, clings to Korean culture as well...standing on your own opinion and go for it is what I really amazed on you...
Lan Lan - Responsible and efficient as a printing manager...And you were fast in distributing the notes, and I was always happy to receive...
Ee Li - Strong and tough...You represent Johor for SUKMA, and I amazed with a your karate level you achieved, Karate girl...
Sze Ying - Expert in drawings = artistic...I like the class t-shirt you design, even though it was simple, but, you can draw words in an artistic way, and I really amazed...
Shook Ying - Knowledgeable and mature...I know a lot of news and stories when I had conversation to you, and really, wish to team up with you again in badminton in the future...
Wai Yoke - Sincere and kind-hearted...Which you are true in the way you are...Even though didn't really had much talking with you, but, I can feel your sincere of you to your friends...
Lai Yee - Simple...Simple as in a way that you're not materialize, and you will always work your way through to what you want, which you gave me a lesson in being less desire...
Sin Mun - Cool...Living in the same block with me, I don't know that you really like to play mini games, and you really stand strong on your own opinion, firm in your own decision...which I need to learn from you...
Yishu - Funny and a good photographer...I like your pictures you took during our picnic, and you are funny in the way you comments on our DJR groups...
Chien Fei - Knowing you for just in this semester, but finding you a chill and stable student in our class, like Khavita, nice working with you in assignment even though it was just only a few times...
Andrew Stephen - Independent and good looking...And even though never really talk to you in class, but you were chill and cool in the way you are, working your own way out for your own education...
Tommy Tham - Helpful...Never really talk to you also in the class, but, seeing you helping out in driving us here and there, and 2 times being your passengers, love the songs in your car...
Kenneth Tee - Loves football and quiet...Same as other guys, never really talk to you also..Hanging out with the class (including you), laughters are there, and pro in CS...
Raja Danial - The money collector and cool...Can't really believe that you are a mix of Malay and Chinese, it was lucky to had a Malay friend that speak Chinese; you had a good sense in humor writing, I salute that...
Pang Hee - Japanese culture oriented....You reminded me one of my previous certificate classmate...your language skills inspired me during English assignment, and I'm happy to work with you in future again...
Andrew Ong - Can't forget him...Weird when I 1st know him...Uncle looking student, but, without him, our class couldn't have so much laughter...Good to have you Andrew...
Hope I didn't miss anyone out of it...
There were more to write about all of you...Old times, I blame myself why I never study well in SPM, so I would have further myself to Diploma instead of certificate...After studying certificate, thoughts change, and I was lucky that my SPM that drags me towards certificate, and certificate drags me towards all of you...And I am grateful for fate that brings me to all of you...Even though I stand on my own beliefs that I create my own destiny; but, without you all joining this remarkable journey of mine with me, things would be different...
And I truly grateful to SPM, that brings me to a wonderful certificate life; and yet, draw me to a magnificent diploma life...
I believe also we had loads of unknown surprise waiting for us, and I can assure we can go through each 1 by 1...Even though we were "out-numbered", filled with what we had, as a group of 26 people...
This was a random topic, and I improvised from what I had written previously...
Once, I would end it like this:
It was one of the greatest gift to have you all in my life, and I was grateful to certificate, that draws me to a superb life in DJR, and that tick I made in the form of choosing the course was right; because I had you all together with me...Thank you, once again...DJR...
Friday, 26 August 2011
Factory
Chilhood memories are fill with happy and sad, which with only this 2...
I came back to the place where my childhood memory lays upon (part of it): The Factory..
Odd or what so ever, it really is where I play and learn...
All the raw woods, machines, transportations (lorry, container and forklift), processing furnitures are actually memories, and the odour of the paints for the furnitures seems already immune to me...
The factory had a 27 years of history, named Yeu Hong, which grew up together with me for 20 years (my current age is 20)...
As I step in to the office, strange feelings come in, as in this place was familiar with me for once, now it became strange, maybe the duration of my visits were lesser comparing to the old times, where me and my cousins use to take place and play with all the people inside while their working (not a good thing to do)....TO BE HONEST, I was failed once again, which I can't really recall the true story behind this factory, as in all I know it was just doing businesses all the time, exporting and manufacturing was what it's majoring all the while...
I love this place, even though it was quite a time since my visit...
My parents been working inside here for 20 years...which how old I am = how long they work...
The colleagues are also the greatest memories, working together with this factory for more than 6 years...Having all the great times with them, so as my parents...Marketing, Purchasing, HR, Production, from the front line to the production line, together, the factory survives until now...
My playground at the factory was on the furnitures, the staircases, and the forklift, where I like to climb on it and take a look from the above, it gives me the sense being on the top, but dangerous, you might fell from it anytime...This was why I am being pride on myself easily, it had something to do with it...
My dad works around all the time (production), hardly see him stand still or sit still on a spot, in case anything...My mum works behind, something to do with logistic, store, purchasing raw wood materials and other stuffs (if I'm not mistaken)...
I love being here, even though it was just only for half a day or the whole day...
Listening to the machines, the driving, the smells, and the people around here, I just can't believe, this factory has been here for more than 20 years...And it was still good looking in it's own way....
The office going through 2 times of fire emergency before, but still survives, it undergo the economic crisis (less of orders) before, still survive, until now, it still operates as usual...And I miss the good old days running here and there talking with my parents colleagues (please don't follow, you're bothering their work progress)...
Now, I get to meet them once a year consistently in the yearly exhibition in PWTC (KL), because I am at KL, and the place was damn near to my college, travelling to there was super damn easy...
This already a culture to visit them during the exhibition, before that it was in the The MINES...The faces of the marketing departments are still the same, which my uncle will be there..Just a simple drop by and dinner with all of them, already a must for every year...
I love this factory a lot...As today, walking in to the show room, looking at all the dining sets, and bed sets, this factory will be going as usual, and I hope that it will keep maintaining it's productivity all the time and success in the future...
I never thought of working inside, as Iim not good in businesses anyway, leave it to the professionals as it always, but, this was still the place that cultivated me as what I am today...
I wish to know more about this factory, and I do believe that I can...
I came back to the place where my childhood memory lays upon (part of it): The Factory..
Odd or what so ever, it really is where I play and learn...
All the raw woods, machines, transportations (lorry, container and forklift), processing furnitures are actually memories, and the odour of the paints for the furnitures seems already immune to me...
The factory had a 27 years of history, named Yeu Hong, which grew up together with me for 20 years (my current age is 20)...
As I step in to the office, strange feelings come in, as in this place was familiar with me for once, now it became strange, maybe the duration of my visits were lesser comparing to the old times, where me and my cousins use to take place and play with all the people inside while their working (not a good thing to do)....TO BE HONEST, I was failed once again, which I can't really recall the true story behind this factory, as in all I know it was just doing businesses all the time, exporting and manufacturing was what it's majoring all the while...
I love this place, even though it was quite a time since my visit...
My parents been working inside here for 20 years...which how old I am = how long they work...
The colleagues are also the greatest memories, working together with this factory for more than 6 years...Having all the great times with them, so as my parents...Marketing, Purchasing, HR, Production, from the front line to the production line, together, the factory survives until now...
My playground at the factory was on the furnitures, the staircases, and the forklift, where I like to climb on it and take a look from the above, it gives me the sense being on the top, but dangerous, you might fell from it anytime...This was why I am being pride on myself easily, it had something to do with it...
My dad works around all the time (production), hardly see him stand still or sit still on a spot, in case anything...My mum works behind, something to do with logistic, store, purchasing raw wood materials and other stuffs (if I'm not mistaken)...
I love being here, even though it was just only for half a day or the whole day...
Listening to the machines, the driving, the smells, and the people around here, I just can't believe, this factory has been here for more than 20 years...And it was still good looking in it's own way....
The office going through 2 times of fire emergency before, but still survives, it undergo the economic crisis (less of orders) before, still survive, until now, it still operates as usual...And I miss the good old days running here and there talking with my parents colleagues (please don't follow, you're bothering their work progress)...
Now, I get to meet them once a year consistently in the yearly exhibition in PWTC (KL), because I am at KL, and the place was damn near to my college, travelling to there was super damn easy...
This already a culture to visit them during the exhibition, before that it was in the The MINES...The faces of the marketing departments are still the same, which my uncle will be there..Just a simple drop by and dinner with all of them, already a must for every year...
I love this factory a lot...As today, walking in to the show room, looking at all the dining sets, and bed sets, this factory will be going as usual, and I hope that it will keep maintaining it's productivity all the time and success in the future...
I never thought of working inside, as Iim not good in businesses anyway, leave it to the professionals as it always, but, this was still the place that cultivated me as what I am today...
I wish to know more about this factory, and I do believe that I can...
Monday, 22 August 2011
Laputa In The Sky : Secrets Revelation
I fell deeply in love with this animation...
It was made by a very famous Japanese animator...The theme song was as nice as the story...Here it goes...
It all started with a girl, felling down from the sky, with a necklace, which glows and help her to float, a boy happen to pass by, and saw this girl which was floating all the way down...It was the stone around the neck that had this awesome power to help people float...
The boy held the girl in his arms, and put her on the floor...The scene was charming...The boy helped the girl to escape from the pirates that wanted the floating stone, and the authorities were looking for the stone also...Which the girl noticed that the stone may actually pointing the direction to the castle in the sky, which is Laputa, a legendary story that tells that this city is actually floating and flying, but, the residents from that city had long lost from the sky to be seen, and they were scattered around on Earth...
The couple's becoming friends with the pirates, and finally, they founded Laputa...And the girl which is actually the royal descendant from the Laputa kingdom, and she was the one to inherit the throne, which it was suppose to be...The girl was been held as hostage by one of the authority guy (also a descendant of Laputa), he planned to use Laputa for world domination (as all villains wanted), failed also in the end, due the boy's courage and the girl's willingness to destroy her own kingdom...Finally, they got out from the castle, and they saw Laputa (what is left of it), floating and floating, disappear within the clouds and from the eyes of the people...
As the story ends, it wasn't too late to realize, certain secrets, it will be always forever safe, as time goes by, when the secret never been discovered by humans, the world might be safe from another disaster...As what I learn, certain secrets are better if you never ever discovered...People said that my mouth would always be the most tightest, no matter how I will never ever reveal your secret...And only dead people can keep secrets, because they were dead...
Not to say that I agree with the point of view that by only killing people, secrets will be kept forever, but, to urge for those people that keeping secrets, if you do not want others to make full use of your secret, don't bother to tell them, and who cares ???
Keeping secrets is like you are hiding tons of stone inside your heart, you can look for someone you trust to tell, or other ways that you favor to release...
For me, secrets are killing, and if I had a chance to know, or if I accidentally know it, that might be something interesting, as in, I wouldn't really care about it, even though curiosity drives me, but, to be honest and frank, I will try my best to stay myself out of it...Secret kills, and it creates conflict...Which I would try my best to minimize it even though it can't be escaped...
It was made by a very famous Japanese animator...The theme song was as nice as the story...Here it goes...
It all started with a girl, felling down from the sky, with a necklace, which glows and help her to float, a boy happen to pass by, and saw this girl which was floating all the way down...It was the stone around the neck that had this awesome power to help people float...
The boy held the girl in his arms, and put her on the floor...The scene was charming...The boy helped the girl to escape from the pirates that wanted the floating stone, and the authorities were looking for the stone also...Which the girl noticed that the stone may actually pointing the direction to the castle in the sky, which is Laputa, a legendary story that tells that this city is actually floating and flying, but, the residents from that city had long lost from the sky to be seen, and they were scattered around on Earth...
The couple's becoming friends with the pirates, and finally, they founded Laputa...And the girl which is actually the royal descendant from the Laputa kingdom, and she was the one to inherit the throne, which it was suppose to be...The girl was been held as hostage by one of the authority guy (also a descendant of Laputa), he planned to use Laputa for world domination (as all villains wanted), failed also in the end, due the boy's courage and the girl's willingness to destroy her own kingdom...Finally, they got out from the castle, and they saw Laputa (what is left of it), floating and floating, disappear within the clouds and from the eyes of the people...
As the story ends, it wasn't too late to realize, certain secrets, it will be always forever safe, as time goes by, when the secret never been discovered by humans, the world might be safe from another disaster...As what I learn, certain secrets are better if you never ever discovered...People said that my mouth would always be the most tightest, no matter how I will never ever reveal your secret...And only dead people can keep secrets, because they were dead...
Not to say that I agree with the point of view that by only killing people, secrets will be kept forever, but, to urge for those people that keeping secrets, if you do not want others to make full use of your secret, don't bother to tell them, and who cares ???
Keeping secrets is like you are hiding tons of stone inside your heart, you can look for someone you trust to tell, or other ways that you favor to release...
For me, secrets are killing, and if I had a chance to know, or if I accidentally know it, that might be something interesting, as in, I wouldn't really care about it, even though curiosity drives me, but, to be honest and frank, I will try my best to stay myself out of it...Secret kills, and it creates conflict...Which I would try my best to minimize it even though it can't be escaped...
Inspired
Loads of inspiration happening around me lately...Bare in mind all are the good ones...
I like to read, both in Chinese and English...Lately, I'm into one of my friend's blog...She gave me what was the precious most : Inspiration....Time by time reading her blog, it gives me a new page of ideas to write on...
Her latest title was on her exams and stuffs, but, what I amazed and attracted was not just about language, it was her message, and the title already giving me a lesson...
DON'T BOTHER...Yes, most of the time, I like to sulk over what was already spilled, it was a past, why look back when it was not suppose to be ?
Moments past..And I would try my best to capture and treasure it, while I can and while I;m able to do so...
In a way that I love happy memories and who doesn't ?
This friend of mine was a Christian, following the God's will...And I am a Buddhist, following on what I believe and taught...
No offence, and I found something interesting...I need to start learning not bothering about exams that long...
I love to do that and I enjoy it sometimes, and I found it difficult to walk out from the darkness of making myself sad when doing exam...
My style exam goes like this : I will never ever read the moment I start my journey to exam venues, and that is a tradition of mine, but I broke that today, and I read it when I was heading for it...For the very first time, I study very last minute (please do not follow)...And I am so worry about it...
When I walk in, I look at the clock hanging on the wall, and mine was slow...The moment the invigilator said you may answer, and I answer with what I have inside my brain...
And I know what I can do, even though I know I would loss marks..WHY care??
I was suppose to let go, right ? In a way that I need to let go...I did my best, and I believe everyone did the same thing in exams....I try not to look back, and I did look back the answers, but, the feeling of blaming myself for what I am seems to fly away, and I didn't even noticed...
I finish reading her blog just know, which gave me an idea on to write about Inspiration, with her blog title that was catchy...I am grateful to had wonderful blogs to read on, and serve as an improvement as well...
DON'T BOTHER...Its a good title, and a good practice, as in where I really need not bother about it while I can, I did what I can to save it, to reverse it, to keep it and to maintain it...I believe for who I am and what I can do, this is not ego nor pride, this is self confidence, as in where I am grateful for who I am, and what I can do, to preserve...And I am grateful to have inspirational friends, that would always help me in a way that I can...
Either it is directly or indirectly, friends are there for each other even though it was just as simple as sitting beside you...Dedicated to her, and the rest of my friends that gave me an opportunity to know myself better...
Inspiration does not only comes randomly, but randomly with what is worth to be inspired, even though it was just a simple action or words to express...
Thank you for the inspiration....
I like to read, both in Chinese and English...Lately, I'm into one of my friend's blog...She gave me what was the precious most : Inspiration....Time by time reading her blog, it gives me a new page of ideas to write on...
Her latest title was on her exams and stuffs, but, what I amazed and attracted was not just about language, it was her message, and the title already giving me a lesson...
DON'T BOTHER...Yes, most of the time, I like to sulk over what was already spilled, it was a past, why look back when it was not suppose to be ?
Moments past..And I would try my best to capture and treasure it, while I can and while I;m able to do so...
In a way that I love happy memories and who doesn't ?
This friend of mine was a Christian, following the God's will...And I am a Buddhist, following on what I believe and taught...
No offence, and I found something interesting...I need to start learning not bothering about exams that long...
I love to do that and I enjoy it sometimes, and I found it difficult to walk out from the darkness of making myself sad when doing exam...
My style exam goes like this : I will never ever read the moment I start my journey to exam venues, and that is a tradition of mine, but I broke that today, and I read it when I was heading for it...For the very first time, I study very last minute (please do not follow)...And I am so worry about it...
When I walk in, I look at the clock hanging on the wall, and mine was slow...The moment the invigilator said you may answer, and I answer with what I have inside my brain...
And I know what I can do, even though I know I would loss marks..WHY care??
I was suppose to let go, right ? In a way that I need to let go...I did my best, and I believe everyone did the same thing in exams....I try not to look back, and I did look back the answers, but, the feeling of blaming myself for what I am seems to fly away, and I didn't even noticed...
I finish reading her blog just know, which gave me an idea on to write about Inspiration, with her blog title that was catchy...I am grateful to had wonderful blogs to read on, and serve as an improvement as well...
DON'T BOTHER...Its a good title, and a good practice, as in where I really need not bother about it while I can, I did what I can to save it, to reverse it, to keep it and to maintain it...I believe for who I am and what I can do, this is not ego nor pride, this is self confidence, as in where I am grateful for who I am, and what I can do, to preserve...And I am grateful to have inspirational friends, that would always help me in a way that I can...
Either it is directly or indirectly, friends are there for each other even though it was just as simple as sitting beside you...Dedicated to her, and the rest of my friends that gave me an opportunity to know myself better...
Inspiration does not only comes randomly, but randomly with what is worth to be inspired, even though it was just a simple action or words to express...
Thank you for the inspiration....
Thursday, 18 August 2011
Act-Smart-ism
Acting and pretending to be smart was kinda obvious to me all the time...
Today, I seriously learned a lesson...
I don't mind learning new lessons everyday, but not in the finals...
This is going screw up my life definitely...
I had my first paper today, and I am definitely not happy with it (after I realize something)...
The invigilator had a voice sounds like "nightingale"...High pitched than anyone else...
During the exam, I was copying/rewrite the answers to the booklet...
Due to my egoism and act-smart-ism, I cross the answers and rewrite a brand new one...
And I don't understand why I had such a confident that the answer will be correct...
After a short discussion (after the exam of course), realizing that my act-smart-ism went wrong...
THE ANSWER WAS WRONG !!!!!
I know I shouldn't sulking over it...But, I can't help it as usual...
There is nothing that I can do to change the past, and I lost 13 marks for that question, which is an unquestionable fact...
I consider my exam today zombie (half dead half alive), with no expectations that I'm going to get A or what so ever, due to my act-smart-ism....
I wanted to share this feeling with everyone: do not ever act smart, although you can act it the way you want, the consequence will be very stupid, and ended up putting yourself in a situation that you can't get through, which is still angry for yourself...
There is a Hokkien saying that: You can be smart, but don't act smart...
I wouldn't want this to happen again tomorrow (hope so), can't guarantee that I won't repeat the same mistake...I seriously hope so...
To overcome, only thing is to prepare well before exam (obvious)...The paper tomorrow is going to be tough and challenging...I wanted to conquer, but, see how, it's not the Alps or Everest...
NO MORE ACT-SMART-ISM...
You will ended up committing suicide mentally, as in sitting there alone and looking at the correct answer...
Confident is good, but it kills sometimes...All the best for tomorrow...everyone...
Today, I seriously learned a lesson...
I don't mind learning new lessons everyday, but not in the finals...
This is going screw up my life definitely...
I had my first paper today, and I am definitely not happy with it (after I realize something)...
The invigilator had a voice sounds like "nightingale"...High pitched than anyone else...
During the exam, I was copying/rewrite the answers to the booklet...
Due to my egoism and act-smart-ism, I cross the answers and rewrite a brand new one...
And I don't understand why I had such a confident that the answer will be correct...
After a short discussion (after the exam of course), realizing that my act-smart-ism went wrong...
THE ANSWER WAS WRONG !!!!!
I know I shouldn't sulking over it...But, I can't help it as usual...
There is nothing that I can do to change the past, and I lost 13 marks for that question, which is an unquestionable fact...
I consider my exam today zombie (half dead half alive), with no expectations that I'm going to get A or what so ever, due to my act-smart-ism....
I wanted to share this feeling with everyone: do not ever act smart, although you can act it the way you want, the consequence will be very stupid, and ended up putting yourself in a situation that you can't get through, which is still angry for yourself...
There is a Hokkien saying that: You can be smart, but don't act smart...
I wouldn't want this to happen again tomorrow (hope so), can't guarantee that I won't repeat the same mistake...I seriously hope so...
To overcome, only thing is to prepare well before exam (obvious)...The paper tomorrow is going to be tough and challenging...I wanted to conquer, but, see how, it's not the Alps or Everest...
NO MORE ACT-SMART-ISM...
You will ended up committing suicide mentally, as in sitting there alone and looking at the correct answer...
Confident is good, but it kills sometimes...All the best for tomorrow...everyone...
Late/Morning = Exam & Studying Last Minute
This is not the first time to stay up so late...
Technically it's not late, it's already morning 6.00 and the cocks are doing their job...
My job haven done, or to say it should be done by now...
I was suppose to studying, ended up playing what I had in my computer/hard disk..
I was suppose to do my revision on the exam later, but, ended up doing other stuffs...
I see myself as a............definite confident, but, also egoism, as in where I really confident in what I am, but, the emptiness within causes me to still read the notes...And I should be doing it right now...
Notes need to be read, so as stop playing on CS's during the exam time, which this can't really help on it...The game was truly addicting and seducing, and I should be resisting the temptation of playing it...
It was still in the dark although it was already morning, I can get some sleep if I wanted, but, I will ended up late to the exam...
Alarm works on me, because it will be beside me the whole time...
Looking at the notes, I feel confident...On the second thought...
I should be really start to do revision right now, or else I will be doing revision during the next semester and I swear I will sulking myself up for a long time if that really happens and that is a IF...
Sleepy, but need to be awake, because I will be having my first paper later, dictionary was allowed which it was the first time I was allowed...
Seriously need to start now, either I die in the exam or I die in resiting the paper...That's it...
Tuesday, 16 August 2011
Magic Wand = Yourself
If I had a magic wand, I would like to wipe out all the sad memeories I had, and fill it up with all the happiest moments...
If I had a magic wand, I would like to foresee the future, and make things to become the way I wanted to be...
Everything sounds so on my own way, because I control my own life, and I made my own way out of it...And everytime it failed to do so...
How I wish I could really work it out soon, how to made my life busy and easy, and it will always be a statement, not an action...It will always hanging around there...
It sounds so awesome, when one's life was easy and busy at the same time...Maybe I need to practice to be multi-tasking...
I love my life to be busy, but easy at the time when it's busy...
It was contradicting and I knew it was not going to happen, I know myself well, by the time I was in busy mode, it wouldn't be easy...
Transferring a sentence from a drama:
The taste of original coffee is bitter, but, you can choose to add sugar or milk to make it sweet...
And I prefer coffer in suger or milk or both...
The magic wand thing seems to be a failure when you can add sugar or milk into your coffee/life...
In case, If I had a magic wand, I would really love to add sugar and millk all the time to fill up the empty spaces in my life, substituting it with happiness instead of sadness...
I tried not to look at the past, and the past seems always sadness when I ever try to look at it...
There are happiness too in the past, and it will always pass by just like that...
Woke myslef up from the instance dreaming in the past, everything was just a pile of dust...
It wasn't too late to realize everything was in the past, and past tense always come after present tense although you can choose to write it either in present or past...
Like writing like taking public transport, can life be?
Cool...Since you can choose to write an essay in past tense, you can choose write in present tense...
You can choose to stop or board in any train station/bus station you want, doesn't that the same thing in life??
And that's your choice, the magic wand is your yourself...
If I had a magic wand, I would like to foresee the future, and make things to become the way I wanted to be...
Everything sounds so on my own way, because I control my own life, and I made my own way out of it...And everytime it failed to do so...
How I wish I could really work it out soon, how to made my life busy and easy, and it will always be a statement, not an action...It will always hanging around there...
It sounds so awesome, when one's life was easy and busy at the same time...Maybe I need to practice to be multi-tasking...
I love my life to be busy, but easy at the time when it's busy...
It was contradicting and I knew it was not going to happen, I know myself well, by the time I was in busy mode, it wouldn't be easy...
Transferring a sentence from a drama:
The taste of original coffee is bitter, but, you can choose to add sugar or milk to make it sweet...
And I prefer coffer in suger or milk or both...
The magic wand thing seems to be a failure when you can add sugar or milk into your coffee/life...
In case, If I had a magic wand, I would really love to add sugar and millk all the time to fill up the empty spaces in my life, substituting it with happiness instead of sadness...
I tried not to look at the past, and the past seems always sadness when I ever try to look at it...
There are happiness too in the past, and it will always pass by just like that...
Woke myslef up from the instance dreaming in the past, everything was just a pile of dust...
It wasn't too late to realize everything was in the past, and past tense always come after present tense although you can choose to write it either in present or past...
Like writing like taking public transport, can life be?
Cool...Since you can choose to write an essay in past tense, you can choose write in present tense...
You can choose to stop or board in any train station/bus station you want, doesn't that the same thing in life??
And that's your choice, the magic wand is your yourself...
Tuesday, 9 August 2011
Digimon
I wanted to wrote about it for quite time...Now I can...I love Digimon, the way how it involves...
I love the team spirit carried out in each episode, it was awesome !!!
I love the songs, it was so Digimon...
I love the characters and the Mons inside, it was fantastic !!!
What else I love about ?
It was actually what they told me...
I watched since secondary school, but a bit and a bit..
Now, I bought the whle set of it (only season 1 & 2)...Can watch anytime I wanted to...
I only fond to season 1 and 2, just love it with no reasons...
The Mons inside were handsome in a way when they involved to the highest level...
2 Mons I love the most: Wargreymon and MetalGarurumon (my profile picture of my blog)...
Each character had their own symbols of charactheristics...I love 2 most: Courage and Friendship...
All the quotes inside: Not giving up easily, We do it as a team...It's educational in a way...
I basically love it no matter how it goes, it won't get bored when I watch it...
The loyalties and supports within friends and a team is what makes them together...
Although in reality, this might or might not happen, but I do believe in teamwork...
Season 1 was about 7 choosen kids sent to the Digital World, and add another 1 at the middle behind of the episodes...
Season 2 continue Season 1, just that kids in Season 1 became more good looking and pretty...Season 2 characters are also cool and gaya in a way, the Mons are getting more sophisticated, including the props and pc's...Stories are getting more exciting, but, the situation are easier compared to Season 1..
Kids in Season 1 needs to worry for food, shelter, and energy to defend and evolution most of the time, and they got seperated in between the journey...It was challenging...
Kids in Season 2 are travelling everyday between Digital world and Reality World (Earth), they can recharge everyday..Hardly found any difficult circumstances for them to solve...
No doubts, all the Mons in Season 1 and 2 are the most gaya's...
My loyalty still goes to Season 1 and Season 2..The following seasons, I wasn't really following it...
I love the ending of the 2 seasons, where it tells me the importance of dream and belief, and confidence...Do your best to accomplish it, it's your dream and hope...
Digimon...
I love the team spirit carried out in each episode, it was awesome !!!
I love the songs, it was so Digimon...
I love the characters and the Mons inside, it was fantastic !!!
What else I love about ?
It was actually what they told me...
I watched since secondary school, but a bit and a bit..
Now, I bought the whle set of it (only season 1 & 2)...Can watch anytime I wanted to...
I only fond to season 1 and 2, just love it with no reasons...
The Mons inside were handsome in a way when they involved to the highest level...
2 Mons I love the most: Wargreymon and MetalGarurumon (my profile picture of my blog)...
Each character had their own symbols of charactheristics...I love 2 most: Courage and Friendship...
All the quotes inside: Not giving up easily, We do it as a team...It's educational in a way...
I basically love it no matter how it goes, it won't get bored when I watch it...
The loyalties and supports within friends and a team is what makes them together...
Although in reality, this might or might not happen, but I do believe in teamwork...
Season 1 was about 7 choosen kids sent to the Digital World, and add another 1 at the middle behind of the episodes...
Season 2 continue Season 1, just that kids in Season 1 became more good looking and pretty...Season 2 characters are also cool and gaya in a way, the Mons are getting more sophisticated, including the props and pc's...Stories are getting more exciting, but, the situation are easier compared to Season 1..
Kids in Season 1 needs to worry for food, shelter, and energy to defend and evolution most of the time, and they got seperated in between the journey...It was challenging...
Kids in Season 2 are travelling everyday between Digital world and Reality World (Earth), they can recharge everyday..Hardly found any difficult circumstances for them to solve...
No doubts, all the Mons in Season 1 and 2 are the most gaya's...
My loyalty still goes to Season 1 and Season 2..The following seasons, I wasn't really following it...
I love the ending of the 2 seasons, where it tells me the importance of dream and belief, and confidence...Do your best to accomplish it, it's your dream and hope...
Digimon...
Tuesday, 2 August 2011
Bye Bye
My sister, leave Malaysia behind...
She had choose Australia - Perth as her place to further her tertiary education...
It was cool that finally she made up her choice to go there...
I happy for her, congratulated her that she finally found her way...
Curtin University, I just googled it...She will be majoring herself in Health Science aka Psychology..
Foundation and English course will come first before she majored herself in what she wanted...
She never really leave the family for such a time...
Today at the airport, I never really talk to her much...
But, I had loads of things to tell her...Just I do not know how...
I gave her the family picture where I kept in the room for 2 years...
It was long time ago though, the members still look the same...
Luckily, she was going together with her friends, got company, it wouldn't be that much afraid...
She was taller than me, I guess...
Start to miss her (she just fly off not more than 3 hours....)
Let go would be the best..Somehow, certain experience must be experienced by oneself to grow...
Still, I am going to miss her...Since world was without borders....
Skype and Facebook works well and can talk to each other...
Her boyfriend was in the same college with me, but different school, can take care of each other....
Now, going home without seeing her face, things will somehow be different...
And I....I, will always miss the time with her...(oh my gosh, she's gonna come back, why so emotional?)
Come on, it's my sister, no matter how long, I will always miss her...
In my heart, bye bye seems to be the hardest word for that moment, still, she has to go...
We are going to say it anyway: Bye Bye!!!
Study hard and smart, we will waiting for you here at Malaysia...
Bon Voyage, dear sis...
She had choose Australia - Perth as her place to further her tertiary education...
It was cool that finally she made up her choice to go there...
I happy for her, congratulated her that she finally found her way...
Curtin University, I just googled it...She will be majoring herself in Health Science aka Psychology..
Foundation and English course will come first before she majored herself in what she wanted...
She never really leave the family for such a time...
Today at the airport, I never really talk to her much...
But, I had loads of things to tell her...Just I do not know how...
I gave her the family picture where I kept in the room for 2 years...
It was long time ago though, the members still look the same...
Luckily, she was going together with her friends, got company, it wouldn't be that much afraid...
She was taller than me, I guess...
Start to miss her (she just fly off not more than 3 hours....)
Let go would be the best..Somehow, certain experience must be experienced by oneself to grow...
Still, I am going to miss her...Since world was without borders....
Skype and Facebook works well and can talk to each other...
Her boyfriend was in the same college with me, but different school, can take care of each other....
Now, going home without seeing her face, things will somehow be different...
And I....I, will always miss the time with her...(oh my gosh, she's gonna come back, why so emotional?)
Come on, it's my sister, no matter how long, I will always miss her...
In my heart, bye bye seems to be the hardest word for that moment, still, she has to go...
We are going to say it anyway: Bye Bye!!!
Study hard and smart, we will waiting for you here at Malaysia...
Bon Voyage, dear sis...
Thursday, 28 July 2011
Today
I was a bit tired, a bit not feeling well...
A bit rushing today, got an event at school...
Adding all the little bits together, it might became a lot...
I also don't know what happen today on me...
It was planned that I came back from school and suppose to practice on my speech...
After a wonderful meal, I slept on my bed...
Next thing I woke up was already 15.43 pm....
Cool!!! I was almost late for my public speaking competition...
With the usual speed of getting myself ready, I was there around 16.06 pm...
Yeah right, I was late...
The hall was cold and I was a bit not in the situation which I am suppose to be...
I am, I was totally not satisfied with I am pulling out today on the platform (stage)...
A bit lost, but found my way, I made a serious new mistake...
I overslept and I didn't even practice during the afternoon...How amazing for a public speaking contestant...
I listen to the rest of the mates in the hall....I can foresee...
It was a good damn thing when I was able to crap out certain sentences out of my head...Lucky the flow in my brain still functions...
I wasn't really expect myself to win...True...
I think I did well in the Q & A session, because I really did answer...
I can do better the way I am, If I never overslept...
An apology to my friends that helped me last night...I disappointed you all and wasted your efforts....
I am Sorry...
A bit rushing today, got an event at school...
Adding all the little bits together, it might became a lot...
I also don't know what happen today on me...
It was planned that I came back from school and suppose to practice on my speech...
After a wonderful meal, I slept on my bed...
Next thing I woke up was already 15.43 pm....
Cool!!! I was almost late for my public speaking competition...
With the usual speed of getting myself ready, I was there around 16.06 pm...
Yeah right, I was late...
The hall was cold and I was a bit not in the situation which I am suppose to be...
I am, I was totally not satisfied with I am pulling out today on the platform (stage)...
A bit lost, but found my way, I made a serious new mistake...
I overslept and I didn't even practice during the afternoon...How amazing for a public speaking contestant...
I listen to the rest of the mates in the hall....I can foresee...
It was a good damn thing when I was able to crap out certain sentences out of my head...Lucky the flow in my brain still functions...
I wasn't really expect myself to win...True...
I think I did well in the Q & A session, because I really did answer...
I can do better the way I am, If I never overslept...
An apology to my friends that helped me last night...I disappointed you all and wasted your efforts....
I am Sorry...
Tuesday, 26 July 2011
Final Exam
Wow..
An unbelievable semester was almost to end...
Cool ? Awesome ?
I don't really know how to describe...
The timetable was out today...
I noticed got Sunday exam...
The first time ever got exams at Sunday...
Going back to the topic with final exam...
We were examined with our understandings throughout 14 weeks...
4 subjects...Amazing...
The moment I looking through the notes, they seem somehow familiar but strange...
I had to be together with them (notes) until the 23th of August 2011...
It's not long...We read it for a few hours or even a few days without sleeping...
We omit it out within 2 hours...
Students need final exam, do we ?
I do not know...
There are pros and cons of having final and without having final...
The conclusion, Had A Nice Final Exam...
All the Best for the Final Exam...
An unbelievable semester was almost to end...
Cool ? Awesome ?
I don't really know how to describe...
The timetable was out today...
I noticed got Sunday exam...
The first time ever got exams at Sunday...
Going back to the topic with final exam...
We were examined with our understandings throughout 14 weeks...
4 subjects...Amazing...
The moment I looking through the notes, they seem somehow familiar but strange...
I had to be together with them (notes) until the 23th of August 2011...
It's not long...We read it for a few hours or even a few days without sleeping...
We omit it out within 2 hours...
Students need final exam, do we ?
I do not know...
There are pros and cons of having final and without having final...
The conclusion, Had A Nice Final Exam...
All the Best for the Final Exam...
Monday, 6 June 2011
Counter Strike
What does counter strike had anything to do with me??
Yes, definitely, got....
I started to play it 1 year back..Where I get addicted...
Now, got classmates and kaki to play with, more funs in there..
While playing alone, I am a sniper, mostly playing in the team of counter terrorists..
While playing with friends aka classmates, it will be auto assign..Its good to be familiar with 2 character...
Now, a game of CS with classmates is must in my to do list..
Whenever there's a counter game going on, I will be there and is a must...
I use to play alone, and had no idea that playing in a team would be such fun...
Now, playing in team with loads of different names, I am already in the situation...
Shouting, laughing and killing each other (literally), just to enjoy the fun rather than which side is winning the game....
To me, CS is not merely a game, it's a place where we can bond together although we had to end up killing each other in the screen....
Done....See YA!!!! Looking foward to the next game...
Yes, definitely, got....
I started to play it 1 year back..Where I get addicted...
Now, got classmates and kaki to play with, more funs in there..
While playing alone, I am a sniper, mostly playing in the team of counter terrorists..
While playing with friends aka classmates, it will be auto assign..Its good to be familiar with 2 character...
Now, a game of CS with classmates is must in my to do list..
Whenever there's a counter game going on, I will be there and is a must...
I use to play alone, and had no idea that playing in a team would be such fun...
Now, playing in team with loads of different names, I am already in the situation...
Shouting, laughing and killing each other (literally), just to enjoy the fun rather than which side is winning the game....
To me, CS is not merely a game, it's a place where we can bond together although we had to end up killing each other in the screen....
Done....See YA!!!! Looking foward to the next game...
Sunday, 5 June 2011
One and a Half Day Without Phone
My phone got robbed during Thursday night...
Everything happen so sudden..
My phone just lost, like that...All the contacts lost...
Some pictures also lost..Luckily more than half of it already in my laptop, no worries on that..
Still sad because a few of it haven save it inside...
The next day (Friday), one and a half day without my phone...Family trip falls on that day..
Certain times, I just had to admit that I really can't do anything without my phone..
Can't contact anyone, can't take any spontaneous pictures you see in college and many more...
On the other way round, without phone, you seemed to free from another side of the world, you were free for a moment, where you no need to reply sms and calls.
You can't do anything and at the same time, you weren't need to do anything...
Free from the busy world that you use to...
You can just relax for the moment without your phone ringing...
The moment I got into my parents car, my sister hand me in a phone which already equipped with my usual Digi number...Efficient family I had..
The phone now I am using is my brother's property..He was so kind to borrow me his phone for a while...Credits to him...
Certain of my contacts came back...
And I slowly get my stuffs on track..
There's a moral lesson here: Don't ever sms-ing or talking while walking on the roadside especially night, you will never know what will happen to your phone/bag...
That's all....Be caution next time...
Everything happen so sudden..
My phone just lost, like that...All the contacts lost...
Some pictures also lost..Luckily more than half of it already in my laptop, no worries on that..
Still sad because a few of it haven save it inside...
The next day (Friday), one and a half day without my phone...Family trip falls on that day..
Certain times, I just had to admit that I really can't do anything without my phone..
Can't contact anyone, can't take any spontaneous pictures you see in college and many more...
On the other way round, without phone, you seemed to free from another side of the world, you were free for a moment, where you no need to reply sms and calls.
You can't do anything and at the same time, you weren't need to do anything...
Free from the busy world that you use to...
You can just relax for the moment without your phone ringing...
The moment I got into my parents car, my sister hand me in a phone which already equipped with my usual Digi number...Efficient family I had..
The phone now I am using is my brother's property..He was so kind to borrow me his phone for a while...Credits to him...
Certain of my contacts came back...
And I slowly get my stuffs on track..
There's a moral lesson here: Don't ever sms-ing or talking while walking on the roadside especially night, you will never know what will happen to your phone/bag...
That's all....Be caution next time...
Wednesday, 25 May 2011
Home
Don't know why so sudden thought of this topic...
But, gave myself a shot try to describe about it...
I born in Johor, Muar...Pure Muarian...
Muar is between Malacca and Batu Pahat...Not far from these 2 places..
I miss the food there...All the stalls and the originality of Ota, mades me feel I am in heaven...
I miss home made dishes from my mum and my grandma...the soups and dishes are simply the best where I can't taste it anywhere accept home..
I had a few homes in Malaysia...Muar is the original, Kedah is the 2nd, where KL also had 2, but technically that is my uncle's house...Another type of home is where you and your group of mates having fun together organizing stuffs and brainstorming - A monastry located at Jenjarom, Selangor...Where we called it our home...
I remember there is a sharing session with my friend, the first sentence is this: Money can buy you a house but not home..Can't really remember what the original sentence is, but the meaning is around the same.
I miss home...
Now, home is not just simply a building, it is a place where you and your love ones live together..
I love my home...
But, gave myself a shot try to describe about it...
I born in Johor, Muar...Pure Muarian...
Muar is between Malacca and Batu Pahat...Not far from these 2 places..
I miss the food there...All the stalls and the originality of Ota, mades me feel I am in heaven...
I miss home made dishes from my mum and my grandma...the soups and dishes are simply the best where I can't taste it anywhere accept home..
I had a few homes in Malaysia...Muar is the original, Kedah is the 2nd, where KL also had 2, but technically that is my uncle's house...Another type of home is where you and your group of mates having fun together organizing stuffs and brainstorming - A monastry located at Jenjarom, Selangor...Where we called it our home...
I remember there is a sharing session with my friend, the first sentence is this: Money can buy you a house but not home..Can't really remember what the original sentence is, but the meaning is around the same.
I miss home...
Now, home is not just simply a building, it is a place where you and your love ones live together..
I love my home...
Monday, 16 May 2011
Games
Me and games...can't really help the moment of get addicted..
I like to play it, and I enjoy it...
Mostly I like games that requires shooting and building, although most of the time I lost...
Dino Crisis is one of the best PS game that I had ever played...I love the character and the guns inside that game, especially the dinosaurs, never ever get bored whenever play it..
Metal Slug, I like to play together with my sister, it's like a team-up thing and we can work together...
Street Fighter is also a game that I miss...Including car racing games, Nascar Rumble and more...
Digimon Rumble Arena is one of the tradition PS game that I use to play...
Fighting and solving mission games are my sister's favorite, I am still ok with these, because had my sister guiding beside me, should not be a problem always..
As for PC games, most of it are online games..
OSU, Super Dancer Online (SDO), Counter Strike, Mission Against Terror (MAT)...
Lately the game that I favor the most is War Craft...
I can't forget game boy..Pokemon will be the best of it, the feeling of training all those pokemons and watch them evolve is one of the happiest thing that can happen..
Another classic game that I never forget is Age of Empire..My dad teach me how to play it, it was the very first PC game that I play, and I can still remember the moment when you watch your empire slowly evolve, including all the cheating stuffs and ways that you can improve your army..Overall, fun...
We had laptop, we had broadband, technically we can play online game each and everywhere..
To me, playing games is not just a passing time, also a chance for me to generate my thinking..
Playing games are not aim to win, but I will try my best..Still, the point of playing a game is, just play it..
Enjoy the moment, enjoy the process...
I like to play it, and I enjoy it...
Mostly I like games that requires shooting and building, although most of the time I lost...
Dino Crisis is one of the best PS game that I had ever played...I love the character and the guns inside that game, especially the dinosaurs, never ever get bored whenever play it..
Metal Slug, I like to play together with my sister, it's like a team-up thing and we can work together...
Street Fighter is also a game that I miss...Including car racing games, Nascar Rumble and more...
Digimon Rumble Arena is one of the tradition PS game that I use to play...
Fighting and solving mission games are my sister's favorite, I am still ok with these, because had my sister guiding beside me, should not be a problem always..
As for PC games, most of it are online games..
OSU, Super Dancer Online (SDO), Counter Strike, Mission Against Terror (MAT)...
Lately the game that I favor the most is War Craft...
I can't forget game boy..Pokemon will be the best of it, the feeling of training all those pokemons and watch them evolve is one of the happiest thing that can happen..
Another classic game that I never forget is Age of Empire..My dad teach me how to play it, it was the very first PC game that I play, and I can still remember the moment when you watch your empire slowly evolve, including all the cheating stuffs and ways that you can improve your army..Overall, fun...
We had laptop, we had broadband, technically we can play online game each and everywhere..
To me, playing games is not just a passing time, also a chance for me to generate my thinking..
Playing games are not aim to win, but I will try my best..Still, the point of playing a game is, just play it..
Enjoy the moment, enjoy the process...
Saturday, 14 May 2011
Kedah - Gurun
Haven really write about it before...
It's my father's hometown, where he born and grew up...
What I like about this place? The morning breeze...cold and peace...
Behind my grandmother's house, is a mountain - Gunung Jerai...
Can view it the moment you step out of the house...
What else I like? The food...
Asam Laksa, Sotong Kangkung, and also grandma's homemade chicken soup and chicken porridge...many more coming....I can still remember the steamboat, the soup was amazing, can't forget the taste...
I really love the environment there, especially night, the stars are amazing...
What else I know about Kedah?
Paddy fields, the view will be better while continue on the highway to Alor Setar...
Very near to Thailand...
Oh Ya!!! Lembah Bujang Museum...We visited it while on the way back to Gurun after a movie...
Located at Bedong..simple, but fill with all the candi's, behind is a mountain also, can get a nice view if walk higher...
What else did I know about Kedah??
That's all I know..and I believe there is still a lot of places that I haven explore yet in this state...
Yam, Padang Besar and many more...
Just finish a nice holiday there last week...2 to 3 days, short but enjoying....Food and family, sitting around the living room, laughing and chatting, simple but warm...Eating during these days as well...
Overall, no matter where you are, there is no place like home...
It's my father's hometown, where he born and grew up...
What I like about this place? The morning breeze...cold and peace...
Behind my grandmother's house, is a mountain - Gunung Jerai...
Can view it the moment you step out of the house...
What else I like? The food...
Asam Laksa, Sotong Kangkung, and also grandma's homemade chicken soup and chicken porridge...many more coming....I can still remember the steamboat, the soup was amazing, can't forget the taste...
I really love the environment there, especially night, the stars are amazing...
What else I know about Kedah?
Paddy fields, the view will be better while continue on the highway to Alor Setar...
Very near to Thailand...
Oh Ya!!! Lembah Bujang Museum...We visited it while on the way back to Gurun after a movie...
Located at Bedong..simple, but fill with all the candi's, behind is a mountain also, can get a nice view if walk higher...
What else did I know about Kedah??
That's all I know..and I believe there is still a lot of places that I haven explore yet in this state...
Yam, Padang Besar and many more...
Just finish a nice holiday there last week...2 to 3 days, short but enjoying....Food and family, sitting around the living room, laughing and chatting, simple but warm...Eating during these days as well...
Overall, no matter where you are, there is no place like home...
Sunday, 1 May 2011
Operation
Never really wrote it down before, it happened when I was taking my certificate semester 2..
Can still remember it was last year January, 2 to 3 weeks before final exam (if not mistaken)..
Quite an experience also, never get myself admitted in before, hope it was the 1st time and the last time.
Story begins at the end of 2009, where me and parents discover that my nose was been blocked for quite a time without being noticed..Can't really smell anything for quite a time..Already studying at KL for a few months, took my mum's advice and try the doctor at the General Hospital..After a few times of consultation, "upgrade" my condition from a general doctor to specialist (ENT), the real "fun" begins...First time saw what is inside my nose that build up the "wall" that is blocking..
After all the explanation, then the climax part, about the operation, only operation can really "demolish" the "wall" in my nose, so, just go ahead..Another climax, quite number of medicine to consume until the day of the operation, which is at January of 2010...
Finally, admitted to the hospital..Everyday the nurse will come and check the blood pressure, normal..My uncle and his family came to visit, it was warm and sweet, thanks..
Throughout the day waiting for operation at the wad, online, watching movie, msn and sleeping seems to be the only pass time routine..
Finally the operation day, parents came, checking blood pressure, and all the explaining, then?? Lying down on the operation bed, waiting...Again, waiting in the operation room, procedures before operations, and blah blah, blah, now the operation really starts after I was been put in to sleep, the next thing I woke up is already evening when a nurse wakes me up..The effect haven't went out yet..I think that whole day starting from the operation until the next day, I didn't move a muscle but just only sleeping.
I saw Mum and Dad the moment I was been in the wad after operation..Although I was blur that time, but can roughly saw their face..LOVE both of you very much..
The real fun part is when I need to breathe using my mouth when the 2 cotton stick was still inside my nose..And the climax again, the doctor remove the stick from my nose, blood came out like....
2 packets of ice put above my nose to cool it down..For the following meal especially drinks, it came with ice, because for the first few days I can't drink anything hot, it will trigger blood, it's what they told me, just follow...
Finally admitted out from hospital, thanks for the hospitality and everything...But, a follow up medicine after operation is a must...
It gave me a good warning, take care of my nose from now...
The feeling of fresh air is really nice..Grateful for that...
Thursday, 28 April 2011
The First Time
Never really try blogging, might as well just gave it a shot.
Everything has it's first time, just go along with the flow.
Nothing much to say, and again, just go along with the flow...
Just enjoy the moment of blogging...
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